Kiwi

Babala: _{Isang maagang paumanhin sa anumang mura at kawalang pigil na reklamo sa mga sususnod sa pagsulat.}

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^{[Oral Com]} Tae. Leche. Bwiset. Mukha akong gago sa speech na yun. Maraming maraming salamat sa mga pumuri at nagsabing maganda at interisante ang speech ko, pero hindi talaga ako masaya sa kinalabasan. Tang inang time limit kasi yan eh. Kung wala yun, magmamayabang ako ngayon na ang ganda-ganda ng presentation ko. Maganda ang content, at maayos ang pagsasalita. Confident. Di umuutal o natatawa sa katangahan niya. Bwiset. Kinarir ko pa naman yun nung nagpa-praktis ako. Sobrang struggle pa sa oras. KYAAAAA! Kainis talaga!

*dabog dabog*

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^{[Nat Sci]} ULUL!!! Gago ka ha! kala mo di ako makaka-sagot! Bwahaha! Tama yan, ngumiti ka sa mga bagay na dapat katuwaan, di sa mga joke mo na utak mo lang ang nakaka-arok. Haaay. Minsan naiisip ko tuloy kung may social life ba ang isang taong tulad mong wala ng ginawa kung 'di maghakot ng mga tao na gagawing hobby ang mainis sayo. Haaay. On the lighter side, tapos na kami! Yehey~

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^[Hangin] Ang lamig noh? Parang Baguio daw ang lamig ngayon. At dahil ang isang tulad ko ay di pa nakakarating ng Baguio, malay ko ba. Marami sa atin ang nagbubunyi sa masarap at malamig na hangin, ako di masyado. Lamigin ako masyado eh. Kaya laging tinatanong ng nanay ko kung paano na ko pag nasa Japan o Korea na ako. Sabat ko nalang lagi: "Madami namang pang-paninit dun eh." at bahala na rin kayo sa interpretasyon. ^^ Ang maganda dito, nagagamit ko yung mga long-sleeves at jacket ng mas madalas. Yun nga lang, medyo kinakabahan ako, kasi baka huli na 'to. May pinanood kasi sa amin na film, An Inconvenient Truth, ang title. Parang documentary, staring Al Gore. Oo, yung kalaban ni Bush sa eleksiyon nun. Sayang, mukhang mas humanitarian si Gore, di tulad ni Bush, war freak. Sa palabas, nag le-lecture siya tungkol sa Global Warming. Ang ganda. Napaka-detailed ng explanation at nakakatakot nga ang pangyayaring ito. Kaya ko nasabi na baka huli na ang lamig na ito ay dahil napaliwanag sa palabas na unti-unting matutunaw ang mga yelo sa north pole permanently, at iba pang lugar na maapektuhan ng malawakang tagtuyot. Kasama na ang mga katubigan at lupa. Ang mensahe ng film ay dapat na may gawin na tayong mga hakbang para mapigilan ang global warming dahil unti-unti ng lumalaki ang problema. Hindi man ramdam ngayon, ay andiyan na siya. Parang isang kanser na unti-unting gagawing mahina ang isang katawan...

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^{[Pangongopya]} Isa sa mga dinaluhan naming forum ay ang kay Dr. Ariolla, hindi ko alam yung pangalan niya, pero ang alam ko ay respetado siyang guro sa UST. Natuwa lang ako dun sa isa niyang sinabi tungkol kay Shakespeare. Itong legendary na alagad ng sining daw ay, "King of Adaptation" at kung buhay pa siya ngayon ay isa siyang batikang direktor ng pelikula. Rinerespeto ko naman si Shakespeare dito. Kung nangongopya man siya, o kinukuha niya ang ideya sa iba eh, napaka galing pa rin kasi hindi halata. Isa sa mga payo ng judge sa isang contestant sa TV ay ganito: "Don't be afraid to copy. Copy it. But make sure you can make it your own. Make it your own!" Tama nga naman. Mangongopya ka nalang, magpapahuli ka pa na nangongopya ka ng kinokopyahan mo.O diba, mas ma-joray yun?

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^[Pagkatao] Oo, importante ngang i-establish mo muna yung character bago ka sumabak sa istorya. Shet. Kaya pala bumabaliko sa huli yung mga sinusulat ko...

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"The medium is the text."

                                                   -Gary Granada

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^[katapusan] Tuldok

 

Today I went to a skin, hair and nail specialist, as promised by Tita. She noted that my "alopecia" is getting severe and needs to be examined soon to start proper treatment. Actually, I've wanted my hair to be checked long before, but some things get around first and be prioritize, so it usually slips off my mind too. It's becoming a problem for me because I'm only 18, but my hair is thinning like that of my dad's, whom is in his 40's. I'm growing cautious and frustrated, thinking I can't style my hair as freely as I want to and by the time I'm 23, I might be on wigs!

This is embarrassing, but it's true.

The doctor, whom was a very friendly woman, is a UST alumni. Well, yey! She asked me initial questions like, what shampoo do you use, is there someone in the family that has the same problem before, what time do you usually sleep, how long has this been a problem, things like that. Then she explained to us the factors that contribute to hair falling like stress, lack of sleep, genes and afterwards examined my scalp with a special machine. It turned out that I have some fungal infections which is one cause of the hair falling and it has to be terminated before any I take any further supplements. She said that the average "scalp level" is 5.1 or something, while mine is 7.2. I was given some leave-on liquids that I will apply in my hair for the span of one week and has been advised to use Head and Shoulders as my shampoo.

The fungal is not a kuto, mind you.

After the *cough* payment of consultation and medicine fees, my long hair bid farewell. It was also one of the doctor's advice, so I had my hair cut 3 inches I think. Now it looks like, this:

 

 

I've never been fond of short hair, because it tends to fly away and my cheeks looks swollen, making me look even chubbier than it seems. But, oh well. If I really want to get good results, I have to endure and maintain discipline.

While I was sitting in the barber's chair that day, a thought strike me. We usually see gays in parlors, right? Cosmetology is generally dominated by gays nowadays, instead of women. Maybe this is the reason why parlors became an unacknowledged byword of bakla, the stereotype, effeminate gay men and has became a second home for discriminated homosexuals from work. I think a lot of other elements constituted to the notion that parlors are for gays, mainly. Hmm... I think this is a good research, perhaps a thesis topic? It would be great, but where will I get my literary evidences? Does one even exist?

From the parlor, Tita and I rounded Kalentong for ukay-ukay shops. This is a delight for me, mainly because I get to pick any clothes and not spend a centavo out of it. Weee~ Sadly, there were only two ukay shops nearby and the other one isn't on sale. We spotted one that offers everything 100 pesos below and I get to own a fokfok boots and a necktie for only 150 pesos.

 

^{_{Black leather boots - 2 to 3 inches heels (100 php)}
Necktie - black with red polka dots (50 php)} 

 

I never owned boots before and heels have always been an issue, but in the name of jrock fashion, well... I just need to buy that pants I spotted... he-he-he. My stomach was getting grumpy so we dinned at Jollibee inside Market Place. Aside from the cholesterol-filled-but-always-yummy foods, that branch of Jollibee fascinated me. To the point that it was plain amusing. Instead of the usual radio station music background or sometimes nothing at all place, the dining hall was serenaded with gentle melodies of classical piano pieces. I even remember telling my companion that it feels like a bar filled with the aura of serenity and musky smell of alcohol, rather than a fast-food chain. There was actually a man that has a keyboard, and I first sighted him playing, later, he shifted to guitars but the songs continued. Now that is unique.

As early as now, I want to say my deepest apologies to Mao, Mewwy and Aia because I might not make it to Vanitea. My next appointment to the doctor is next Saturday and there might be a family outing.  It's either I arrive late or I just skip the whole thing. I genuinely would love to spend the day with you guys and glamorously fashion gothic and jrock clothes, but family and responsibility comes first. This is so depressing... I'm even planning a mini shoot...

The yin and yang again...

To liven up things, I spotted two video parodies of The Lord of the Rings from youtube while searching for gay movies. Ehehe... no offence to LOTR fans, it was so damn hilarious. You don't need to watch the film to find the clips funny. MWAHAHA!!!!

Which LOTR guy is gay?

Lord of the Rings - Redubbed Frodo In Bed Scene 

Kanina, isang talakayan ukol sa darating na eleksiyon para sa taong 2007, ang dinaluhan ng aming klase. Ang tagapagsalita ay si COMELEC Commisioner, Benjamin Abalos.

Ang totoo, wala akong hilig sa pulitika. At isang pag-amin din na bagama't nasa wastong gulang na ako, ay hindi pa ako rehistradong mamboboto. Bakit hindi? Tamad. Walang interes. Hindi sa walang pakielam. Marahil ay hindi sapat.

Sa naturang talakayan, isang estudyante mula sa kursong Journalism ang nagpahiwatig na kahit unang araw pa lang ng pagpaparehistro, ay napakahaba na ng pila. Ilang oras ang aabutin mo sa pilahan at karamay pa ang init ng panahon. Sa kabilang banda, ay may mga magugulang na nagpaparehistrong dire-diretso nalang dahil may kakilala, at siya ngang pailalim ang daan.

Kung iisipin, ang pagdaing sa pagtuwid ng maling pamamaraang ito ay maliit na problema lang, kumpara sa dayaan sa pagbibilang ng boto o pagbili ng boto. Pero sumagi sa isip ko, na walang malaking problema na hindi naging maliit minsan. Dahil sa patuloy na hindi pag-pansin sa ganitong problema, ay lumalaki ito at nakakasanayan. Ang sabi nga, maliit pa lang ang sunog, tupukin na, dahil kakalat ito at mas marami ang maaring masawi. Dahil sa patuloy na hindi pagpansin sa maliliit na bagay na ito at pag-pokus sa malalaking bagay, ay hindi namamalayan ang unti-unting paglaki ng problema. Na sa kinalaunan, ay isa na rin sa mga malalaking problema, na dadagdag pa sa mga kasalukuyang malalaking problema.

Nakakainis mang isipin, ay ganito ang nangyayari sa lipunan natin.

Going to places and observing strangers gives me the grandest of ideas. It's fun, but the feeling is always longing...it always make me wish something higher for myself, other than what I have now.

One of the ideas I collected upon walking the streets of Ortigaz is, talking to a complete stranger and revealing yourself to that person, without holding back and doubting the person and even yourself of betrayal.

Maybe going to the place of the Asonu would be really helpful, since they are considered to be great listeners. Yes. Someone who will just listen to you whine, laugh, scream or curse just about everything about the world, your life, youself...until you're left staring out of the setting sun, feeling empty. Empty for you have released everything you concealed for years.

Afterwards we can say our good-byes and shake hands like good friends. Friendship is not about how long; it's about what you and that person share that you treasure the relationship. I think I'm going to walk away, smiling to myself and with a long, deep sigh...I will live.

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Yuta Takamoto is my favorite character in the anime, Honey and Clover. Yes, it was also this character that I quoted several posts back. For me, he is the most rounded character throughout the two-season series. He always leave these things about life to reflect. One topic he contemplated about was, EMPTINESS. He regarded the sound of his empty refrigerator to be the sound of emptiness. There's nothing to see but its interior and the continuing sound of its motor.

Today I was asking myself If I felt the same. If it is the case, then I've missed acknowledging it for years. I don't like doing nothing if I have the mediums to keep me busy. I always have to have something to do. I always need to be listening to something. When there's no sound, I'll be preoccupied by my thoughts, get confused and feel...empty.

Oh no. Maybe I'm just thinking too much again.
If only I can travel the world with only my bike with me like Takamoto, maybe I'd find my answer too.  

 

I'm a self-proclaimed 'garbage' for today.
I slept late for nothing; woke up late, for more unnecessary nothingness.

I feel like a bum.
I want my mouth and brain to activate and make me shout at somebody.
Maybe then I'll cry, "SLAP ME!"
PACK!
I will still be a deflated ass.

Spacing out is a particular interest of mine.
Especially today.
I'd combo it with dead eyes or a frown, then occasionally blurt, "ha?" or murmur, "mmm..."
I don't know what's wrong!

I have an oral recitation for Fiction, which I didn't prepare for.
I have a quiz at Statistics, which I never gave my interest. I'm always ill-stricken when it comes to numbers and graphs.
Mmmm...

I thought that History would be the usual enuu, so I'll try eluding it in today's calendar.
Indeed, I have manged to fly away from Garcia's merciful litanya of UST policies and marriage life.
Take note, I did it without my conscience breaking me to paranoia.

Well...HE got his way.
It crept and took form in disguise.

On my way to school, this old woman whom was sitting beside me suddenly offered me some peanuts, which I politely refused. She's the type of grandma that you'd wish was your own. She had this air of gentle and bright aura that can easily make you smile.

As expected, a round of questions and story telling of her life as a student and a kid followed. Then I gave my share of memories and thoughts. It was a pleasant conversation.

As the jeepney was nearing my stop, the wise left me with the constant reminder of an adult to a youth: "Cherish your parents because they are one and only in your life; offer them your diploma, they will be very happy and touched; always pray and of course, study hard because it is for your future."

I thought, "ah...what a bummer. So much for cutting first period!"

The vehicle stopped. I bid that lovely soul good-bye and say a sincere, "thank you" for that gentle wake-up...

Maybe rebelling is not suited in my nature.
I just wanted to use my time more spontaneously.
But anyways...Thanks, Lord.
^^

 

 

Going to class, I was bombarded with probabilities and sharp coldness, penetrating my epidermis. Maybe because I'm evil, I survived the math. However, I was still not in high spirits. I kept hissing even while I was walking. I was glaring at posts and pedestrian crosses, because I was envious. They are serving their purpose in life. And there I was, looking for a bloody computer that would address my heed for my new-but-defective diskette to work.
No chance.
To hell with reactions.

Around Fiction class, my head was lighter and the laughs came home.

It is indeed weird and heart-breaking, this day.
I don't even understand how to react to my behavior.
Is this is what you call a "mood swing"?

some quizzes you might want to try out yourself...

 

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

Your Outrageous Name is:

Sue Edge

You Are a Pundit Blogger!

Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read. Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few

Your Greed Quotient: 44%

You are somewhat greedy, but your greed is probably a healthy motivator. Wanting nice things is normal, as long as it doesn't take over your life.

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life. But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it. Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career. Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

You Are "Wow"!

Your Fortune Is

War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.

Your Vampire Name Is...

Queen of the Underworld

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day. Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable. And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success. You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

Your Political Profile:

Overall: 15% Conservative, 85% Liberal

Social Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Your EQ is 113

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.