Entries for March, 2006

March 3rd, 2006

03.02.06 - thoughts

[HEY YOU! YOU RED FACED CHUBBY!]

“Ang ganda mo ngayon ah.”
“Porke ‘picturer’ ka ngayonm nag make-up ka pa ha!”
“Amputi ng mukha mo!”
“Yes naman…nag blush-on!”

Mga sira. Init yan. INIT.
Kasalanan ito ng araw. Sa sobrang init yata eh namula yung mukha ko. Samahan mo pa ng pagkahingal.
Kulang nalang himatayin ako.
Mag-basketball ka ba naman sa ilalim ng tirik na araw!
Halos maligo na ako sa sarili kong pawis!
Pero infairness naman sa performance ko ngayon sa PE.
I think I did a good job at our dribbling exam although I was a little out of sorts with the game at first
I pulled through and I think I marked this time.
But the results got my face all flustered.

So guys, again.
Natural yan.
Hindi ako nag blush-on, okay?

******




[A STEP FORWARD]

A few nights ago, Rustom Padilla confessed to the world he is gay.
After 30 years of long suppression and longing for self freedom and fear of rejection,
Rustom just made a milestone everybody.

I guess the “coming out” * ends for now.
Atleast for the time being that he is inside the house, where the media cannot interogate him
With unnecessary questions, that can even resurface the fear and doubt to himself.

Yes he is gay.
For some: “big deal!”
For others: “really?”
For me: “Wow.”
what he did was such a courageous thing to do.
In a society where morality and the chuch plays such a big role and the influence is unfathomable,
would you risk yourself to be judged and be mocked by others for the freedom you desire?
I surely would. If it would mean giving myself the chance to be happy as what I really am.
Freedom is a really beautiful thing.
Let’s treasure it.

Saludo ako sa’yo, Rustom!
I’m sure mas lalong dadami ang magmamahal sa’yo kasi totoo na ang ipapakita mo
at ang totoong sila din ang ipapakita nila sa iyo.


=)
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*Coming Out. "Coming out of the closet"; the public announcement/confession of a homosexual about his/her sexuality

Currently listening to: "Sway"
Posted by miyuchi at 08:59 PM in Life ekek | 6 shared

March 4th, 2006

"i don't want to see you laughing! I want to see you work!"

Errr...

I have to pull my acts together. I have a list of things to do, and I'm the least interested to do them.


THE LIST

1. Philippine Literature - Essay on "What are Filipinos Like" by Leon Ma. Guerrero
2.Philippine Literature - Filipinos as an object
3.Philippine Literature - Written Recitation
4.Philippine Literature – Song research ( Bayang Bario – “Hari Nawa” and Joey Ayala – “Little Brown Man”)
5.American Literature - Paper on Anne Bradstreet's "For my Dear and Loving Husband"
6.American Literature - Documentation from Dr. Bienvenido Lumbera's Forum
7.Theology - Sacrament of Penance
8. Research paper in English - (pending)

I haven't started on anything---yet. But I HAVE to. The problem is, I don't WANT to. Argh.

PATABAING BABOY!

That's what I call myself these days. I’m lazy, I crave for naps and pig out with food. Aaaaaargh!!!!
I feel like a bad spirit is hovering around me, making me this useless. Gosh I’m so inlove with pleasure.
HEDONISTA!

Before you think green, not THAT pleasure.
Jun Matsumoto-food-Jun-food-Jun-anime-Gokusen-Jun-FOOD.
Plea-sure.

Argh. Do I really have to do those? Sheesh… I’m such a bum.
Currently listening to: "Ophelia" by L'Arc~en~Ciel
Currently feeling: lazy
Posted by miyuchi at 06:41 PM in Life ekek | 2 shared

March 6th, 2006

passing by

After a treat of some yummy yummy fishball and kikiam at Dapitan (sponsored by Miguchi which I would like to greet HAPPY ANNIVERSARY for his blog! Pay him a visit minna~) and some chat session with Ate Aubrey (ate! naks!), I found myself here in the library and enjoying the free and fast net. And I MEAN FAST.

Envious~

I want a laptop for my birthday! Eherm! PARINIG!
Throw it, slap it to me, I dont care! I want a laptop!
Of course, if you're going to deman something I want to make it a good one!

REQUIREMENTS:
Pentium 4 processor up
*the ram, mother board and other chuva
DVD-rom/DVD-W/CD-W/CD-rom
Wifi
Infrared/Bluetooth
Webcam
USB port
Optical mouse (o sige kahit wala)
analog/touch pad mouse
Sony Earphones

Mwahahahaha!!! Basta! Ayan!

I took this test that Mewwy sent me. Quizzy about what color I am. I was guessing RED. And know what the result is! Tantanantandan!

Michel, your true color is Red!

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.


I knew it. hah!

Currently watching: Matsujun @youtube (wafu!!! *_*)
Currently feeling: fangirrrrly!
Posted by miyuchi at 01:17 PM in Life ekek | 8 shared

March 7th, 2006

*stab*

Every morning is becoming a "jun morning". It's just that when you get addicted to something or someone, a good way to start your day is to have a glimpse of them, ne? And hey, browsing at two to five in the morning satisfies my download mania. Dial-up serves its purpose perpetually well.

However, I never get up in time.
That's how you mix school with simple pleasures.

Like this morning.
I set the alarm clock at 3, but I ended up waking at 4:30.
I was damn upset, because it's unbecoming of me to not wake in time. Well, according to my trusty phone. I was damn upset because I wasn't able to download anything, check jun_daily and finish our Reference paper and I had to rush it.
I was able to eat a heavy meal, and it serves as the only relief.
I should set my mind to following schedules next time, ne?

At 5:45, Mao and I met up but we have to take the FX again for she's having her finals in PE today, and can't afford to be late. You know there are also bitchy teachers in PE who wouldn't let a single soul go of a mistake; even mark you red in their record. A million ‘Boo!!!’ for them.

We arrived at school rather early so we decided to drop by at the Eng Complex first, where Mao attends her PE. We usually take the route at Dapitan, so we turned the tables for her sake this time. Later I saw Clara on the way and walked to class with her. A few minutes later, Mabajugjug came and we had our History unfold. Strangely enough, I wasn’t sleepy for that particular morning, yet I wasn’t in the best mood for listening. My filler for History is usually full of notes, from direct dictation from the prof, but now all I took were lousy terms I don’t even know what the hell means. Sorry, I’m particularly proud of my History filler. Every time I open it, it reminds me that the student in me hasn’t given up to the deadly sin growing in me, sloth.

X_X

After History, I went out to have our assignment printed at one of the computer shops at Dapitan. Miguchi and I were on our way back to the class, when I spotted those tempting peanuts a few steps from the yummy yummy fishball and kikiam stand we ate at yesterday. I bought one balot for five pesos. We were passing this shop when exactly as I was going to put some kornik and nuts in my mouth, this kid got my attention when he pleaded:

“Ate, pahingi naman akong pera. Pambili ko lang ng pagkain ko.”

I was dumb-founded. Those were the saddest plead I heard from anyone from the streets. And he was curled p, leaning to this glass of one store, obviously suppressing his hunger. What got me even shocked was my respond. I shook my head and said:

“Wala eh.”

I’m the lowest. And to think that was the second time I saw and encountered with him. The first attempt, he was arrogant in his tone and it only got me irritated. But this time, I was really mean. A few seconds after that second encounter, I was struck with guilt. I hope I can see him again so I can buy him a food or something. Anything to lift his spirit. You see poverty everywhere and what the hell is the government up to. They’re also part of the kabataan you adults are referring too. They’re the future of the country too, so do something! Sheesh…

We weren’t supposed to have Logic today but the fire drill we we’re waiting for were running late. Logic is fine with me, as long as Laws of Indifference is out of the questing. I like the five rules or the fallacies or the causes or scientific chuva, but no more of that brain squeezing exercises that have can have A-Z involved in one given. After going through that stage of logic, I started appreciating truth value, which is A LOT easier, ladies and gents. Gosh. I’m about to give up Philo…

English is boring as usual. You have to wait for the prof to call you and your partner to check your paper and afterwards you can kill yourself. It’s a matter of choice, hon. Of course that would be ennui if not for the company of my seatmates. I love the geography of my seat in English. I have close friends surrounding me. I can laugh and imagine there’s no existing authority inside. Just me and my big mouth. Yes, I’m really noisy, sorry. They know. I wish I would use my mouth with my mind and recite once in a while. After one sem and almost completing this second one, I still haven’t adjusted to college recitation. I’m still always uncertain of my words. I guess I picked up some sort of paranoia after messing up some of my so called “attempts”. Or maybe I’m just not doing my best. Kulang sa kapal ng mukha? No, that’s not it. I have plenty of that, trust me.

After an hour of English class when the damn fire drill finaly started, which I must say is a complete, and I mean it. A COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME. Observed the reaction my foot! What sort of reaction would they expect us to have when we know what the hell is going on! Should we act like there’s really a damn fire somewhere and scream like an imbecile in the middle of the hallway? Know what happened? The instruction was to form two lines and follow the secretary out of the building and head to the front of the high school building in exactly five minutes. As if that’s going to happened. How many are we in that structure that we can all escape in five minutes? Maybe if some would jump out of the window, then that would accommodate the time. Stupid fire drill. As if we really learned something. Duh.

Again, I thought that the next class would be dismissed because of the stupid activity. Ms. Violet is running late. So in between chats, two pol sci majors (I think) was provoking us to join some sort of talk or was it a rally? I don’t know. About the government, and what we, the youth, stand concerning the matter with the stubborn president. I pretty much don’t care. She wouldn’t listen anyway. A one-track minded person would never listen to others and would only think of his or herself misunderstood by others. Half of me wanted to state that to them and join in only to spoil their beliefs and the half of me were saying: “Sorry, we are literature majors. We are neutral. And we’d like to remain like that. We’ll observe from here.” Though I was kidding, jokes are half meant. Then Violeta came. Am Lit turned into Homeroom once again. Well, it’s quite a benefit for us. No boring lessons, no reading, just pure ‘sharing’ and entertainment.

Dismissed at one o’clock, I met up with Mao infront of the pavillion and went our merry way to España to ride the bus to Ayala. We almost missed it actually, only to be asked to transfer to bus ahead of it. I don’t know how long the trip was (because I fell asleep again), but it was a nice nap. Good airconditioning a nice comfy seat. The eighteen pesos was worth it. Today’s agenda was to visit the Japan Foundation Manila office to check their library. I read at their website that we could watch some j-movies and listen to some j-music there for an hour. But to our dismay, all the media we found were some “unknown” NHK programs and a bunch of ‘How to Learn Japanese’ videos. I guess the magazines made up for it. I was hoping to see some Jun features since there was a TV/Movie guide mag. Perhaps some Shoxx or Arena 37? Hmm. Ouch. None. Even the books were written in Japanese! No chance. Argh. I don’t know. Well, we really didn’t ask for so much information, maybe the media materials we were after might be granted upon special request. Whatchathink?

So stomachs really grumbles and makes itself known if it needs to be feed, huh? I just happened to hear a proof of that. Sorry, not from me. Wink. Now that makes me think way back to high school. There was a time when hunger strikes back at me, and the damn organ wouldn’t shut up from it grumbling. I think my tummy grumbled for an hour. If it did, then my seatmate must’ve been hearing it for an hour too. Ahhh!! So embarrassing!
The power of food cannot be underestimated. After the library trip, the last stop Chowking where I gave up at the sight of delicious, drool worthy food. Foods are evil. Especially chinese, they’re too good at that alluring. Argh! I spent forty-six pesos on congee. Again. Masarap na lugaw. Panalo.

I arrived home around five and finished reading Neil Gaiman’s Sandman: Dream Country.
This is a long post.
Big relief. Maybe I can put myself on a shell for a few days away from this blog.
And focus on my…studies?
Aja to you, micchie. Best of luck. Best of luck.
I’m in bash-ful mode tonight. Is it the weather or the frustration? MWFs are making me shiver.
Quiz tomorrow in Math. Graded recitation in PGC.
San ka pa?
Currently listening to: "Hadashi" by ARASHI
Currently reading: Sandman: Fables and Reflections
Currently feeling: bashful
Posted by miyuchi at 11:59 PM in Life ekek | 6 shared

March 11th, 2006

Procrastinating

One more project to go and I can "focus" on my finals then.
But then, since "focus" doesn't really apply on real life, and is only the ideal, I shall narrate some of my procrastinating days.

Last Thursday, was our PE's last day. Atlast! We won a game! WOHOOO!!! And the most important thing, I enjoyed the game. I never thought of it as a competition, I was trying to enjoy myself on the court as long as I can, without letting down my guard. I'll miss my team mates. They're fun and crazy like me. And...hindi kami buwakaw di tulad ng iba...bleh.... Hah. Bitter?

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PE Classmates - Mari, Anelle, Mai, Grace "Biba", Lalang, Jen, Ar-ey, Ellane



Because I changed clothers with some of my team mates, who mostly belong in the Engineering dept., I got to see the interior of their building. Quite old but it's a lot larger than our building. Anyways, after bidding them goodbye, I went to the shop Mao told me about to download some vids. I think 2 hours internet for some 400+ MB videos (of ARASHI) and mp3s (of ARASHI) and watched live streams (of ARASHI) from youtube.com. AHHHH!!!! I want Jun's La Familia solo song! It's a pretty song! The internet is really fast and I'm thinking of downloading avi files of doramas. Either, Gokusen II (or just buy it), Kimi wa Pet or Hana Yori Dango. Mwahahaha!!! Yes, yes, I know the last two stars Jun Matsumoto, I know. That's the point! And I found (just now) some really really good sites that I can download j-vids and music. I just need money to rent a pc again and download away!!! wohooo!!!

*me getting addicted again*

After eating lunch this afternoon and reading a chapter of Paolo Coelho's By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept, I put it down and had my blissful seista. Sleeping from 3 - 8:15 P.M. isn't so bad, I didn't get head aches this time. Talked with Mao then went down to eat and watch My Name is Kim Sam-soon and Pinoy Brother. Now at 1:54 A.M I'm still awake and downloading what I can with my apparantly lovable speed of net connection.

*me bored*

I took a quiz. Credits to Cheska for it and the Sandman pictures!


Michelle --

[noun]:

A person who laughs at anything (even this entry)



'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com


So true.


Currently listening to: "Tomadoigara" by ARASHI
Currently reading: Paolo Coelho's By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept
Posted by miyuchi at 02:01 AM in Life ekek | 4 shared

March 12th, 2006

weekend...weekend...

ATSUI! ATSUI! ATSUI na!!!!
I can feel the summer atmosphere present this early! Argh!

I was over dad's house this weekend. Finally, after a month, I showed my face in that house and to the people who live there, who happens to be my family. I was busy the last 4 weekends so I couldn't pay them a visit.

Well, that was one of the reason.

You see, I don't like living in that house. That's why whenever dad would ask me to live there, I shook my head and reject the offer. My alibi was always mom's consent. I know she would never allow me to settle there, and I had my reasons too. I don't have much friends and I wasn't familiar with the area. I would stay at home all day and watch TV. Recently the house was renovated. They added additional floors, which makes it a 4 storey structure. The third floor was supposed to be the "lounge" and the 4th floor is the roof deck. Yeah, so we have a big house, big deal. It only made me feel smaller living there. Since the house has become so big, we were given much space apart, and there were times when I would not even see one of them because we stay at different places. I miss the small comfy house where you'll get annoyed by the fact you don't have a choice but share a room with another person, or not being able to watch your prefered show on TV, but atleast it opens a change for family bonding. And since the people there have their own businesses, I'm almost always alone anyway. The only family day we have is Sunday, when they have to drive me back to Makati and we would stop by somwhere for dinner . I miss those times. Since dad left for abroad, the good times seemed to have fly with him...

Hah! So much for my sentiments. I had my round of good memories for today anyway. Me, Tita and Jom went to Megamall this afternoon. Earlier, dad called and I was able to talk to him. I really miss him. Things were so much better and organized when he was here. But I'm not complaining with Tita or anything, I know she's going through alot for us, let's just say, dad is the better leader. At 12, we met at Sbarro and ate some really good pasta and pizza. Delisyoso! I didn't like Sbarro before because my first food there was their spaggheti. Of course I wasn't used to the taste of pure tomato sauce, so that was a bad first impression. Let's also say that was YEARS ago, I was a selfish brat who dwells on the likes of Jollibee and food court foods. Things change, I like eating in variety now and as soon as I saw those melting cheese on that gigantic pizza almost made me drool. And I must say that pasta we had with whiter sauce on it and really good garlic bread hits number one! I'd love to eat there again. Maybe on random times, just for lunch. ^^V

Then we watched Big Mama's House 2. Flaws here and there. And it wasn't as funny as the first one. As it usually is. We went home around 4; ate Jollibee's Ube-keso Ice craze. Nothing special, I like the ice cream on top, which you may only avail if you add 10 pesos more, that's it. -_-"

I watched Bug Me Not while I was waiting for Oniichan to come and get the digicam back. That was already 7:30 so I wasn't able to attend the mass, instead I said my prayer and head home.

*wipes sweat*

Great, as I said, the atmosphere is hot enough, and here comes the rain pouring down. It would be so hotter later...gyaaaah...
Currently listening to: "Crazy Ground" by ARASHI
Currently feeling: atsui!!!!!!!!
Posted by miyuchi at 11:25 PM | 4 shared

March 24th, 2006

hellow!

Something I consider majestic just happend...

I was able to talk to "Jessie"! (2005, Galang)

Huh?

Okay, so that was me dreaming.
I AM STUDYING!

Maji na! maji maji na!

Well, it's finals week, and tomorrow is the last day. Math. Argh. Do I even know something about that subject? Magsusunog nanaman ako ng kilay nyan. Sorry for the long haitus (for those who avildly visit and read my little domain), it's been 10 days since my last post. Wala eh, tinatamad ako magbukas ng PC, pati magsulat ng mga ideas ko. But it's not like this has been my longest pause, check my February 2005 archive, I thinlk I posted only 3 entries for the entire month. Haha!

Lately I've been into Logic. Yes, that subject I solely thought would bring me my greatest destruction, which is "debaration" (2005, Pereña), has been the apple of my eye for the past weeks. It's like this. Mind rules everything. Sometimes we think that this and that is like that because that what we presume and that is the initial perception of people. But without giving it a try, we can never really say it's the truth right? So, it's not like I'm saying I'm a logical person now, it's just that the lessons we are taking up that almost often gave me headaches was pretty easy to follow. You just have to allot energy and time to get the gist of it and later enjoy the formulas! That's it! So, Logic is out of my "summer" list. Phil Lit wasn't so bad. The exam was pretty easy. My only fear now is, my grades for the final exam may not be enough to pull my "palakol" quizzes and recitations. PGC was fine, I studied and am certain for most of the questions. I was excempted in AmLit for our documentation project then HISTORY. Oh fuck! I just want to shout every expletive I know whenever I recall those exams of Mabajugug! Eh nangamote rin ako nung prelims eh! Kanampuchanginangyanoh! . Now that subject tops my list. Argh...

Anyways, my birthday is coming up and I feel weird that my family is planning to throw me a party. Why a party? Why not just a laptop instead?! Or $500?! Or a real bishonen?! Throw it to my face! Come on! I'll gladly accept it! MWAHAHAHAH!!! Now that would be a really worthy gift. I can't believe I'm 18. Oh well, it's not that I do not like guests, I just don't know how to entertain them. I suck at social relations. And to think I have different groups to mingle with, in one occasion! But I can do it! AJA!

My freshmen year is coming to an end! And I want to say my big big DOMO ARIGATOU! to my new found friends who kept me company whenever boredom is threatening to, uh, bore me again. ^_^V thanks so much!

Now onto a more serious matter.
I don't like hating people. Seriously I don't. Because the more I think that I don't like that person, the heavier it is to carry. And it's annoying me even more. But I try hard not to get carried away, and as much as possible, I want peace of mind. I always follow the golden rule. Because I know karma is always around the corner. I don't want to recieve the same treatment towards me. So I'm staying as who I am. If people doesn't like me, then that's fine. I don't have to push myself, others accept me for who I am, and that's how I love myself.

*sigh*
This is a crappy post.
I'm getting sleepy. Have to study math tomorrow.
Sorry, but this is a simple update!
Ja ne~
Wish me luck, whoever you are!

Credits to Aubrey nee-san for reminding me that I have a blog to revive! ^^V
Currently listening to: "Sakura Saki" by ARASHI
Currently watching: My Lovely Samsoon (marathon! XD)
Posted by miyuchi at 08:10 PM in Life ekek | 2 shared

March 26th, 2006

Heat Stroke

It's HOT. As in MAINIT. Sobra.
I'm going to have a stroke with this heat.
Argh...

I feel tired. Specially my eyes. Too much radiation perhaps?
I've been too much of a couch potato lately, and I personally think I will never ever change this.

We watched My Lovely Sam-soon the whole day, last Friday. Yesterday, I started my day with my new dramaIt Started With a Kiss which I recently found out was another manga adaptation. I'm just glad Taiwanese directors are good with this so the story wasn't murdered at all. Also, there has been a dorama live action of the same manga, but according to the review I've read, the Taiwanese version was much better for it didn't squeezed the story with only a few episodes, that the good parts or scenes wasn't left behind. Then later this afternoon, my oniichan found my Gokusen DVDs and watched from episode 1-9! He's familiar with the anime so watching the live-action was no stranger to him. In short, I've been having a major Asian drama marathon for 2 days now. That's Korean, Taiwanese and Japanese! Coolness!

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Speaking of Gokusen, I'll try to write my Gokusen Special post tomorrow or the next day. Every time I watch the live-action, I can't help but compare the anime with the manga. There's too much difference but a similar feeling and plot. Too much too say! Argh!

Anyways, anybody familiar with Akuma de Sorou? The manga I posted with a small review along with Kill Me, Kiss Me? No? Whatever! I say it is a great great manga! I don't know if they've turned it to an anime yet, but there has been a live-action in Taiwan. Yes, fans. There is. The title was changes though: The Devil Beside You. I can't seem to find a decent article about the production, so I lack the infos on this, minna. While browsing for ISWAK pics and reviews, I often found the title with it and the title quite intrigued me. I searched some pics of it at google, and huwala! My intuition was right! It's not that I don't appreciate the Taiwanese version for I haven't seen it, but I was hoping, really hoping for a dorama for this one. The street fashion would be lost if it's not played by Japanese people, in JAPAN!

*sigh*

Okay, fine. Lay off with the Asian drama, micchie.
Yamenasai, ne? Hai...

April 10
This date gives me the creeps. I feel like fainting every time I think about it.
Debar.
Failed.
Patay ka, Michel.
I want to be optimistic, as I always was. But knowing how to judge myself, and reflect on the things I've done to deserve this regret, I JUST HOPE I'M WRONG.
Sa totoo lang, feeling ko talaga may bagsak ako.
Kung hindi summer ang aabutin ko, ireg na ko next year. the worst that can happenis spending my 2nd year of college lamenting for my "slothiness", lost of j-items (prediction kong torture ni mamoy saken), and adjusting to a new school.It's so easy to slack around, but making-up takes a journey to hell to escape.
Shit, diba?
Pag iniisip ko, sana inayos ko...
yung ganun...
tang na naman eh.
Hirap ng ganito.
Maybe it’s the reason why I don't like to stay in one place and be one with silence. It's not because of the "mumu" anymore, it's the voice that's been bothering me and the thought of disappointing myself and my parents. I've always talked about, no, advised of CONTROL, but I can't control myself when it comes to my addiction. I guess it's not called "addiction" for nothing. Laugh at me if you want, maybe I am worthy of being called a "fanatic". Maybe.

I’ve been checking out blogs more than I usually do for the last 2 hours of surfing the net. And now I’m finally updating mine. How dead this little base of mine looks like. Since it’s vacation time, and I need all the activities I need to keep my mind off my pass-fail issue, I think I’m going to make-over this blog. I know I’ve said this many times but I’ll really do it now. There’s so much time to spare, why not lend it for half of my life.

*sigh*

I feel so stuck with the present.
I feel like I can’t move on.
I have no ambition, that’s why I have no motivation.
No. I’ve finally realized, being a WRITER, isn’t really my passion.
Because I don’t know what it is, really.
I feel so sorry for myself that I have to realize this after being so proud of myself.
I don’t know what I want with my life. What career I should take.
It’s all a big question for me.
Sometimes I want to be lady behind the camera and become a DIRECTOR. When I want to capture the beauty or the darkness of life in a still picture, I want to be a PHOTOGRAPHER. When my imagination strikes wild and putting it to words is my last resort, it’s where the writer in me that fills in. But all these, I can’t be. I have to choose.
I can’t just sit here. Study because I HAVE to, not because I WANT to. I’m not complaining about LIT. I personally love the magnificence of short stories and novels, or the symbols and the depth of poems, but a part of me says it’s not for me. Or maybe it’s too early for me to judge. Maybe there are still aspects of my life that I will discover and it will open my eyes to the light.
Perhaps this is one of God’s many challenges. If it is, bring it on!

*anotherdeepsigh*

Summer…what should I do with 2 boring months?

”plans”
+ Apply for summer job (yebah! Legal na ko! Pera! Pera! Pera!!! XD)
+ Read books – “Sandman” series, “By the River Piedra I Sat and Wept”, “One Hundred Years of Solitude”, “Stainless Longganisa”
+ Read manga scans – “Akuma de Sorou”, “Mars”
+ Marathon of anime – “Genshiken”, “BLEACH”, “Petshop of Horrors”, “Le Petit de Portrait Cossette”
+ Loose some weight (weh?)
+ Write a story (putek sayang ang mga ideas!)

I can only do this much. And these “plans” will be according to my “issue”. Please pray for me. I’m freagin scared about the matter.

T_T

Last, a taggie from MAO.

Name 3 schools you went to:
1. Guadalupe Nuevo Elementary School
2. Guadalupe Catholic School
3. University of Santo Thomas


Name 3 things in your purse/wallet:
1. Money
2. ORs
3. ID

Name 3 things you always wear:
1. pants
2. underpants
3. t-shirt


Name 3 things you do when you are really stressed:
1. write angsty and depressing poems (not exaggerating)
2. look for yaoi stuffs
3. shut up

Name your 5 favorite songs right now:
1. "WISH" by ARASHI
2. "A.RA.SHI" by ARASHI
3. "Geh deh Ji Gum" by Lim Jung-hee
4. "Rising Sun" by TVXQ
5. "Narda" by Kamikazee

Name 3 favorite places to shop:
1. Ukay Ukay.
2. Powerbooks or Booksale
3. Quiapo

Name 3 places you go to on a daily basis:
1. school
2. bahay
3. CR


Name 3 things you like to do:
1. surf the net and download
2. write randomly
3. eat


Name the 3 most valuable things in your life:
1. my family and friends
2. PC
3. Books


Name 3 favorite fruits:
1. apple
2. grapes
3. cherry

Name 3 things you are addicted to:
1. Anime
2. Anything Asian
3. Downloading

Name 3 goals in 2006:
1. Lose the "bingo" grades
2. Pumorma
3. Save money (lots ^^)


Name 3 plans for next week:
1. Marathon ng My Name is Kim Sam-soon
2. Download more ARASHI videos
3. Study for Finals


Three Names You Go By:
1. Micchie
2. Mitch
3. Iche

Three Things That Scare You:
1. Creepy and slimmy creatures
2. Disappointed parents
3. Ghosts


Three of Your Everyday Essentials:
1. money
2. food
3. yaoi-jstuff-anime (package sila eh)


Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. shorts
2. t-shirt
3. underwear


Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists:
1. Dir en Grey.
2. L`Arc~en~Ciel.
3. Parokya ni Edgar

Three PHYSICAL Things about the opp/same Sex that Appeal to You:
1. lips
2. frontal side of the body
3. smile


Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:
1. Japan.
2. Korea.
3. Paris


Three things you want to do before you die:
1. Live in Japan
2. Write a book
3. Get rich

You think all this drama was brought by the heat?

Para masaya...




ARASHI lyrics


Currently listening to: "Kenka Joutou" by Tokyo Jihen
Currently watching: It Started With a Kiss chapter 12
Currently feeling: paranoid @_@
Posted by miyuchi at 02:35 AM in Life ekek | help?

March 29th, 2006

GOKUSEN: ANIME VS. LIVE-ACTION

As promised, here’s my Gokusen Special post!
Dozo!



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Story
Yamaguchi Kumiko is a 23 year old woman who has just graduated from collage. She takes her first job as a teacher in Shirokin High, an all boy school, as a teacher. Unfortunately, her first teaching class is a bunch of delinquents. Being new at her profession, the class takes her lightly. As a woman of determination and optimism, she sets her goal to winning the trust and respect of her entire class.

Micchie:
Gokusen’s story format is quite similar to another anime series, Great Teacher Onizuka or GTO. A new teacher gets a job at a school, handles a class of delinquents and finally wins them at the end. Both the characters of Onizuka and Kumiko are also alike for they both have a gang; one is a yakuza’s granddaughter and the other as an ex-biker gang leader. Many anime fans cannot help but compare these two anime because of their plots, however, we have to remember that these are two different works and each anime have something special to offer.

Anime vs. Live Action

On the spring of 2002, Nihon TV aired the live-action version of the popular anime “Gokusen” starring famous personalities such as Nakama Yukie (Sadako of Ring Zero), Jun Matsumoto (of group ARASHI) and Shun Oguri (Azumi, Densha Otoko).

Micchie:
Unlike other anime-turned-live-action like “MARS” and “Hana Yori Dango”, I was surprised that the live-action version of Gokusen didn’t fatefully follow the storyline of the manga or the anime. Perhaps this is because the chronology of the story is day-to-day basis and does not follow a consistent storyline. However, some parts of the anime was present like the episode where the class of Yamaguchi tracked a thief down and her first day of class where Shin first noticed how she differs from their past teachers when she caught by a hand a baseball ball that was thrown at her without looking. The anime finished with the viewers hanging for more and some things are still not clear so you really have to read the manga for the details. After the 12 episodes of the drama, a special was made showing the graduation of class 3-D. Speaking of the class, in the anime Yamaguchi’s class is 2-4, while it is class 3-D in the drama. The class also calls Yamaguchi “Yankumi”, a nickname given to her by them as a shortened “Yamaguchi Kumiko”. This calling thing is quite uncertain to me, for the anime that I watched was dubbed in english and I certainly don’t remember them calling her “Yankumi” even once. The live-action presented a touchier feel to it, as they created character reflections per episodes. Of course, these are especially for the 5 special students of Yamaguchi and her. The anime tends to be a lot more gag, as the live-action balances their comic and sentimental element well.

A story would never be complete without the characters that make it alive; here are the characters of Gokusen. Dozo!

Characters

Yamaguchi Kumiko
a.k.a Yankumi, Ohjou

A 23-year-old college graduate and has received her first job at Shirokin High. Yamaguchi the granddaughter of a Yakuza leader therefore she grew up knowing how to defend herself and adapting some characteristics of a yakuza. Since 7, she lived with her grandfather after her parents died of a car accident. Someday, she may inherit the position as the new leader of the Oeda group. Yamaguchi can be clumsy and silly at times but her optimism and strong belief in a person makes her be loved by many.

Micchie:
I applaud Nakama Yukie for doing such a great job of bringing Yankumi to life. The character was well adopted in terms of the physical look (with the sweat attire, glasses and pig-tails) and her silly antics. When it comes to being comical, Nakama Yukie particularly entertained me well. However, the Yamaguchi of the anime and live-action has their differences. In the anime, Yamaguchi tends to be the laid back teacher who knows that she can handle her students with her own strategies and timing. She doesn’t get involves so much in the matters of the students unless she caught them in the act or have to help them when they are in trouble. Now here’s another thing about the Yamaguchi of the drama, why does she have to remove her pig-tails and glasses every time she’s about to go to battle? Isn’t it more convenient for her to have her hair tucked away from her eyes when she dodge and kick? I never saw the Yamaguchi of the anime do that. Anyways, I think she is more of a technical supporter than a problem solver that the Yamaguchi of the live-action portrait. I know Yamaguchi has her moments of words of wisdom speeches, but the Yankumi of the live-action tends to make her momentum pretty long. And I tell you, this is PER EPISODE. Though we get something from these speeches, it tends to be quite boring. Also, the Yankumi of the live-action is a little careless when it comes to her Yakuza roots. She carelessly uses Yakuza words or expressions that leave others shocked. Lastly, the way she treats her henchmen at home is a little too bossy unlike the anime version that was kinder and more timid when it comes to her big brothers. The drama also failed to show Yamaguchi in action as a yakuza member that I think was really focal to the background of the character.

Sawada Shin
Shin is the group leader of Yamaguchi’s class. Everyone respects him because of an incident with his previous school. He’s sometimes aloof, serious and smart. He’s notorious for being fearless with his teachers as he is always seen sleeping, arriving late or walking out of class even if the teacher is present. Shin is the first one to break Yamaguchi’s secret as a member of a yakuza clan and the first to notice something unusual about Yamaguchi.

Micchie:
Sawada Shin is a bishie. Okay, so that was my first impression of him. He is. Make it the anime or the live action (JUN! *lablab*), he’s outstanding. Jun Matsumoto did an excellent job in portraying the introvert Shin. He showed the usual smirks and stares of Shin so natuarally. From the bright red hair of Shin from the anime, the drama fashioned the character with black and a strand of blonde at the side for him. Since Sawada is obviously rich, he is organized with himself; he looks clean except for his hair that shows his rebellious side. I think this physical aspect of his makes him part of 2-4 visual-wise. Sad to say the red head is gone in the drama but focused Shin’s defiantness to his attitude. At the beginning of the drama, Yankumi had a small argument inside the class with Shin with her using the word “nakama” or buddy. I think this part shows that Shin doesn’t give his trust that easily to anyone. The drama shows a more sensitive side of our second main character at the latter part. He is mainly concerned with his friends and sister, Natsumi, which was also not present in the anime. Being the leader of the class, he is always the first one to make a move when someone is in trouble.

Kumai Teruo
a.k.a Kuma

Kumai or “Kuma” meaning “Bear” in Japanese, is Shin’s bestfriend. He is the largest of the class and often found himself in trouble because of his cocky attitude. Kuma may seem scary but in fact, he is one of the kindest and most lovable student. Kuma is also the first student whom Yankumi helped from trouble, and the first one that earned her respect.

Micchie:
It’s amazing how they found the perfect actor to play Kuma. The character and physical appearance were perfectly carried. I don’t have much to say about this character as he is simply lovable. He’s still the loyal friend to Shin, loves eating and well…the dummest of the class, sad to say. But he is lovable and in the drama, Kuma showed that he can pass a subject if you study hard. In the drama, Kuma’s family runs a noodle shop and his whole family was shown. In the manga, his mother works at a hostess bar (I forgot in the anime). The first episode of the anime was the first time Yankumi helped out Kuma. In the anime, his mother knows Yamaguchi and scolded his son to be kind to his teacher for she owes her something. In the drama, Yamaguchi helps Kuma at the first episode when the head teacher accused him of stealing money, but she only meets his mother in episode 7, at PTA day.

Uchiyama Haruhiko:
a.k.a. Uchi

“Uchi” is one of Shin and Kuma’s friends in class. He’s rebellious and sometimes clumsy with his words and actions that gets him trouble, which ends up his whole gang in the problem too. Like Kuma, Uchi is a kind buddy who is willing to help out his friends when they are the ones who needs help. He is usually picked to fight because of his looks, especially his what-the-hell-are-you-looking-at-punk stare.

Micchie:
They gave justice to Uchi in the drama. He looks A LOT cooler. Really. In the anime and manga, he has this funny hair, freckled face and he looks scary, although he sort of small. In the drama, he is tall, with bleached hair that he pulls back with a clip or a headband and he even had it braided! In the special, he had at it dyed back to black. The drama gave each student an opportunity to be explored, rather than only as a supporting character. He has a single mother and they are poor. He wanted to quit class and look for a job to help her and lessen her burdens. Rather than the clumsy and loud-mouth Uchi of the anime, he is rather laid-back and cool in the drama. Actually, I think he has the same coolness as Shin.

Takeshi Noda
Noda is a cool friend of Uchi, Kuma and Shin. He doesn’t complain much, but when he does, he usually accompanies it with a frown and a “tse!”. Like his friends, he is loyal and always willing to help.

Micchie:
Uchi is rather cute in the drama, and his signature cap is missing. Instead, they replaced the cap with a scarf. As I said before, Noda and the others serves as support or a side-kick, but in the drama, Noda is shown as a happy-go-lucky rich guy. Yes, he is rich. He brings his laptop and digicam everyday. In the drama, he develops a huge crush with their new English teacher which also positioned him in a really bad situation. He is also very fashionable which explains why he wants to attend art school in college.

Youichi Minami
Minami completes the gang of Uchi, Kuma, Noda and Shin. He is the playboy of the group and can often be seem chasing after girls and getting their numbers. Once again he is a loyal and helpful friend.

Micchie:
Again, he looks way different in the drama than the anime. In the anime and manga, Minami has a scarier face and his lip is quite prominent. In the drama, he looks cool, with his long hair and he looks more of a ladies man. He is one of the cool guys in the class as he doesn’t let his friends be dragged along his problems and as much as possible don’t let them know, although they will eventually. ^^

Sawatari Goro
a.k.a Kyoto-sensei, Head teacher, Vice-principal

He is the number one enemy of Yamaguchi’s class. He is always on the look out for trouble maker students. He is strict and is always organized with his work. Being dominant in character, he sometimes tends to be too bossy that he’s like the principal rather than the second in command. He drives a VW bug that the students sprayed with paint when they played a prank on him.

Micchie:
The Kyoto-sensei except for being strict really has a different aura in the drama than in the anime. The anime showed him as this strict, always frowning, scheming teacher that wants to uncover Yamaguchi’s background and kick her out of school. He is always wearing a construction hat that he thinks is needed for protection against student pranks and a camera which he uses to catch Yamaguchi’s actions. In the drama, the Kyoto-sensei is much more comical. He is always quarreling with Yankumi and rather than scheming against the teacher, is much more focused on finding wholes against class 3-D that would expel them from the school. He often makes funny faces to mock Yamaguchi but he is actually a good man. He often embarrasses himself but he remains superior against his co-workers that make him inevitable. Rather than the overly disciplined man with no social life and only his work and family, the drama gave him a side-kick which is one of the teachers too, and they and the rest of the male faculty staff often go out at night to hostess bars.

Shizuka Fujiyama
Fujiyama-sensei is another teacher hired by Shirokin high with Yamaguchi. Unlike Kumiko who is quite a tomboy, she is sexy, lady-like and handled a better class than her.

Micchie::
Another character who went under major processing. Although the drama and the anime have Fujiyama-sensei as an attractive, sexy, young teacher, the drama gave her a smaller face and model-like figure, while in the anime, her face looks swollen, with thick lips and bob-hair. In the anime, she teaches music and established a choir club; in the drama she teaches English. She almost got fired when her side-work as a club hostess at Ginza was discovered by the school in the drama.

The Principal:
He is always smiling, laid-back, kind principal. He doesn’t indulge much in school activities that gives the vice-principal a chance to rein the school, although with much bigger business, the final decisions ends up in his hands. He is the only one who knows about Yamaguchi’s background and supports her dream of being a teacher. He believes she can bring changes in the school.

Micchie:
I love how the principal can be so happy with his life. His school isn’t at all perfect, and there are delinquents loitering around. But I think he is one of the school figures that know that these kids only want attention and understanding. In the anime, he stays in his office doing paper works that wears bow ties and is very small. In the drama, he is often seen in the garden, watering his plants in simple clothes and a towel. He can be mistaken as a janitor!

Kikuno Kawashima
She is the school nurse, though often seen in the faculty than the infirmary. She is a single mom with a six-year-old boy named, Yuta. She is funny in her own way and often flirts with Shinohara-san. She is a drama only character.

Shinohara Tomoya
A real gentle man who is often present when Yamaguchi and his students get in trouble. Yamaguchi has a long-time crush with this guy!

Micchie
Shinohara-san’s character from a Yakuza ally became an enemy. In the anime, he is a lawyer and helps Yamaguchi’s grandfather with his business because he owes something from them. In the drama, he is a cop whom Yamaguchi met in the bus, where he helped her. I think the anime showed more chances of having a ShinoharaXKumiko pairing that in the anime. He is more focused on her in the anime than in the drama where he usually helps her only because it’s a crime that’s involved with her students.

Kuroda Ryuuichiro
a.k.a Ojichan / grandfather
He is Yamaguchi Kumiko's grandfather and a leader of a yakuza group, the Oeda Family. He is a kind man, especially when it comes to his only granddaughter. He does his job well as a respected leader.

Micchie:
Yankumi’s grandfather has different personalities in the 3 versions of Gokusen. According to my sources, in the manga, he is really scary and is more of a Yakuza figure than a grandfather. He seldom talks to Yankumi and does business more often. In the anime, he is well balanced. The caring grandfather is present but it gave the audience a peek at how he runs business. The rival gangs were shown and his reputation as a powerful leader was made known in one of the episodes. The anime also showed him getting bed-ridden so some of his works was transacted by Yamaguchi; proving herself worthy as an heir of the Oeda Family. Meanwhile in the drama, the grandfather is always at home, always smiling, caring, supportive; the ideal grandfather. You may think he is too soft to be a Yakuza leader.

Tetsu Asakura
Tetsu is one Kumiko’s loyal assistants. He is older than her, so she treats him like an older brother. He is a devoted member of the Oedo family and is very thankful for them for accepting him in their home.

Micchie:
I don’t know why the live-action Tetsu doesn’t look like the original character at all. In the anime and manga, he looks really scary and he really looks like a henchman of a notorious group. In the drama, he looks more appealing and gentler. He is also in love his ojou in the drama so he is very protective of her. This protectiveness of him I think was the main reason why he and Minoru sells Tokiyaki near Shirokin, to keep close watch of his ojou and for food.

Tatsukawa Minoru
Like Tetsu, Minoru was taken in by the Oeda group and is a loyal follower of both Yamaguchi and his grandfather. He is obedient but most of the time clumsy that leads them to trouble sometimes. He is always with Tetsu.

Micchie:
Tetsu without Minoru is like Kuma without food. Hehe…at least that’s what I think. They’re always together! They are the perfect example of brothers. Minoru in the drama is like the Tetsu of the anime and manga, though he looks a lot kinder and gentler. He is really cute, I think. He looks like Buddha! His look matches his attitude.

Oshima Kyotarou
One of the toughest looking yakuza members of the anime and manga. He helps Kumiko’s grandfather often and can be considered as the leader of Tetsu and Minoru. Although this man looks like a fist ready to kill, he is really a kind middle-age guy who wants to protect the people he loves.

Micchie:
There are other two men in the drama that I don’t know the name. And it’s making me think if one of them is Kyotarou. In the anime, he is the one who is in love with Kumiko. He often cries whenever Kumiko would do or say something noble and would go to some extent just to protect her. He is the one who taught her how to fight in the anime but in the drama, it was her grandfather.

The story revolves around the characters so the flow of the show will depend on how each character is portrayed. The anime and the live-action have a lot of difference, but I think this is mainly because; they had to adjust the story according to the version. Or perhaps, according to the viewers’ expectation. I think there’s never been a perfect version and audiences will always seek for a variation. What matter is how they deliver the message of each episode and the same feel of youth spirit that Gokusen has successful imparted on its readers and viewers.

The SHINKUMI issue

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Here’s the tricky part of Gokusen.
I know Gokusen fans would love to see Shin smile more and take effort in courting a girl.
I know Gokusen fans would love to see more of Yankumi’s goofiness in front of the man she likes.
I know Gokusen fans wouldn’t mind a teacher-student ROMATIKU relationship.
I know Gokusen fans would love to have Shin and Yankumi as a couple.

*sigh*

Unfortunately, all three versions of this title only gave hints. The manga and the anime only showed hints in the concluding parts of Gokusen. Shin took special interest in his teacher. He is often inspired by Yankumi’s words and at other times, would get obviously jealous of Shinohara. But they never expanded this possibility. It would’ve been great for further character development. The live-action was bolder about it. At the last episode, when Tetsu and Shinohara with his job partner were having “man talks” on pursuing Yamaguchi, Shin cuts in and said: “Sorry but…make it four of us.” So I thought, whoa, what the hell will happened? They have to show this development. After the live-action series, a special episode followed that showed 3-D’s graduation. I thought they were going to show Shin hitting on Yamaguchi, but all there was again was the god damn hints. Argh.

So what the hell are these HINTS anyway?

1. Shin was the first to notice something particular about Yanaguchi.
2. He often stares and observes her quietly and secretly.
3. He is often concern about her problems to the point that she gets annoyed by it.
4. Shin rarely smiles, but when Yamaguchi is around and goofing in class, he can’t help but smile.
5. In the anime, when Shin was pulled out from school by his father, when Yamaguchi visited him from the rooftop, he blushed.
6. At the last episode of the anime, Shin got really annoyed when Yamaguchi kept on calling Shinohara’s name. When he finally arrived, he faced the man and said: “You could do better than that.” Is that a threat? ^^
7. In the live-action, he was really happy and even giggling when Yankumi was there at their graduation trip, though it wasn’t really according to plan.
8. In the live-action, when they confronted the school board to help Yankumi retain her position, he said that since Yankumi came, school has become interesting and he always wants to go to school. He also said he was ready to open up his heart to her.
9. When Yankumi was set-up for a marriage date, the gang followed her. Shin kept careful observation to her and her date. He looked afraid; even envious of the man.
10. He is the second main character.

Haaay….all we could do is rely on our imaginations.
Put it down to words (fanfics) or ink and drawings (doujinshi, fanarts).
SHINKUMI! SHINKUMI! SHINKUMI!

FYI:
There is a Gokusen 2 live-action, but Shin wasn’t present.
There are rumors that there will be a third part and Shin and the whole gang will come back, of course with Yankumi herself!

It’s the hair!

My brother watched the Gokusen special and I sat in with him. I just noticed that the live-action characters had different hair styles! This showed that it has been really several months and its down to graduation week.

~Noda’s hair grew and he had highlights too!
~Uchi’s hair got a little shorter and he dyed it back to black.
~Fujiyama sensei’s hair grew longer and was wave-ish.
~Tetsu’s hair was brushed up with a gel.

Here ends the Gokusen special post! I can’t believe it took me a week to finish this! I’ve done drama (Love Roller Coaster) and anime (Get Backers) specials before in just one seating. Oh well, maybe I’m getting old, getting slower. Hehe…hope you enjoyed this post for those Gokusen fans!

OH!
Currently listening to: "Oasis" by HYDE
Currently reading: Sandman: Fables and Reflections
Posted by miyuchi at 04:56 PM in Anime | 3 shared