Kiwi

hahaha!!! its' April Fools Day today!!! and it is also the birthday of one of the most haliarious but amazingly talented basketball man!

HANAMICHI SAKURAGI!
omedetou hanamichi!

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU TO ME!!!!

yesterdaya was my birthday and i say big thanks to all those who greeted me! that really made me happy!

that's all! ^__________________________^V

I'm alsmost finished watching Forbidden Love, my very first dorama, starring Takizawa Hideaki and Mtsushima Nanako (The Ring, GTO live-action). And i must say I'm very lucky to have bought this dorama. These are the kinds of topics that i'm always after. Those topics that crosses the line...taboo to society. I think i've seen the synopsis of this dorama long before the PC was first broken, and when i was browsing randomly for Takky's information. For anybody's information, the show dramatesized a teacher-student relationship. As society sees it, it is immoral and therefore, wrong. Especially that and educator is the one involved in the wrong doing. Although, it could easily be said and observed that it is wrong, i like what Michi (Matsushima (yes, kapangalan ko siya!) said in episode 08, "It is not wrong to fall inlove! And i fell in love! he just happend to be 17!" and yes...it is very true. i think, from Michi's point of view, she doesn't want to fall for Hikaru (Takizawa), but her heart is a tough enemy, she couldn't evade the attack, however, give her the confidence and strenght. So i advice minna to watch it!

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I just got my card this wednesday, and to my surprise I recieved a Merit Card (given to outstanding students for Academics)! hoooray! All hard work for the last quarter paid of well. i love my grades! i got all line of 9 exept Math which was 89. ekek. Ok lang! expected to ko na yun! Matagal ko nang tanggap na mahina talaga ako sa Math! And i don't have any intension to be that good at it! learn, but no masteral! haha! however, i really doubt my conduct which all showed an E. i dunno...i know i was a bad girl...hmmm....they weren't looking close enough. Oh well! They saw the real me! haha! ^_____________^V

After recieving my card, went straight to UST to confirm my enrollment with my pal, Nico (Salutatorian namin yan! hanep!). Rode the MRT, para hindi mainit at masarap ang biyahe! para aircon! Aircon....i miss my classroom! i miss the way it made us "Brrrrr..." in coldness...hehe! mga ungas kami! nung mainit, hanap ng aircon! labas ng labas kasi mainit sa loob! nung meron na, nagrereklamo pa rin kasi masyadong malamig! labas pa rin ng labas kasi naghahanap ng init! Anak ng! Hahaha!!!! Anyways, the jeep we took from SM North Edsa goes straight to España so it wasn't so bad, only it was soooooo hot inside! Gusto ko maghubad! Pero di pwede....nakakahiya, i have shame! haha! The process of confirming wasn't so long...filled up some records then i'm off! breakdown for my course, 28K+. eeeeeeeeekkkk! ang mahal! Haay...I had my PC fixed that day, and the repair man said to fetch it around 4 or the next day. it was almost 3:30 that time, so i just asked Nico to come with me to Quipo. Since he was planning on buying Full house series anyways, and me craving for my Anime! gyahahaha!!!

In Quipo, bought Saiyuki Reloaded complete series for i despise the Animax dubbing. It really sucks! i just wish they bring back the japanese dubbing and simply put translations! We can bear that! Ne? Bought a Naruto special and a Onegai Twins OAV, which unfortunately, doesn't work either in my PC or player! shoot! Siyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!!!! Sayang okane! Grrrrr....Next time i'll check the condition of the CD first, which most of the time, because of my stupidity and overflowing excitement, causes me to forget this very important ethiquet. Uhn.

Targets:
Onegai Teacher and Twins Series (which i think they don't have)
Get Backers
Please Save my Earth
Spirited Away (disk 2 <-----kabobohan ba itoh?)
Hikaru no Go Series / Special
WieB Gluehen
Kodomo no Omocha
Le Portrait de Petit Cossette (Gothic! gyaaa!!! just like the one i have in mind! Actually exist!)
......and more......

i wanted to buy a korean or japanese movie that time too, however, i almost ran out of money. Almost forgot that me and my barkada still has an outing next week!

Well, today, i finally got my PC back, but our phoneline upstairs (where the PC is located) is still busted. i dunnot what the hell is wrong with it. My grandpa doesn't either. If it isn't so expensive to have an extension by PLDT, i'll pay for it. looks like for now, i have to bear the pain of setting the PC up and down if i really want to fill in my craving for internet. Micchie! Gambatte! Aja! Aja! Fighting! i will find a way to solve this! SOON! i've downloaded a converter for WMA-MP3, so i'm converting my WMA files to MP3 now so i could burn them. I may also make a back-up to my gallery too. it would be a shame to loose everything if the PC suddenly blacks out again *knock knock*. hmmmm....what else?

Am addicted to Asian Kung-fu Generation and i'm lucky enough to say that i have found a pretty good site that has Discovery, Information, Downloads and such about the band...hehe...have to browse through it still though...there are videos! Yey! Loop and Loop here i come! Ehehehe...another addiction, MANGA!!! Manga is good. Good for everyday life. Source of Yaoi...source of strenght, giggle, and a whole lot of fantasy man...hehe! Unfortunately, i can't seem to find the remaining tracks for my Gravi scans. i got only up to track 28a, and the rest, i guess, if i really can't find them, or to anybody selling scans, then, i'll buy the remaining volumes! uhn! Gambareeeeeeeeeee!!!!! So minna! ONEGAI!!! if you know where i could DL the tracks, please give me the links!!! another big big DOMO LA! *glomps minna*

Oh! and lemme say big "DOMO DOMO LA!" to Mao for her b-day gift to me! i really love it! Astig ka talaga! the way you design, bagay ka talaga sa Advertising! Good luck to our endevours! Especially the drum sticks! really love it! hehehe....oh! and to those you asked to greet me! namely...Laruku, DEG, Raphael, Pierrot, Lareine, Gackt, PLC, Miyavi, Shuichi Shindou, Yuki Eiri, and Osamu Tezuka! yeah, close na kami ng mga yan! Hahaha!!!!

*looks up* wow...its been a long time since i posted this long...haha! Ja ne!

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HALIMAW KA!!!! NAPAKALAKI MONG HALIMAW! AY HINDI!!!! HALIMAW KA PERO PANDAK KA! PANDAK! PANDAK! MATANDANG TUMATANDANG PAURONG! LETCHE KA! HAYOP KA! HAYOP! HAYOOOOOOP!!!!

sino yan? siya lang naman yung officer ng skul namin na malapit ng mabulok dahil sa mga stuck-up, kay-susungit at napakamakalumang tao na katulad niya! siya lang naman si Mr. Baluyot, Oscar Baluyot at your service! in-charge of making students crawl for their report card, trabaho niyang magpaiyak, mangterror at manabla ng mga estudyante. Kilala rin siya bilang si "BUB" or Big Ugly Baluyot. Isa siya sa mga tao sa skul na pakiramdam niya eh kanya yung paaralan. hindi porke simula nung natayo yun eh ganun na siya umasta. kala mo kung sino, pakiramdam niya pa walang laban ang principal sa kanya. KAPAL TALAGA NG MUKHA. Tignan mo kung gaano nakakairita yung taong yun, graduate na nga ako, pinapakulo niya pa dugo ko. bwisit siya talaga. Siya yung human definition ng word na "Bwisit". Para siyang tae na ayaw mahulog sa pwet. Tse! Pweh!

Bukod sa ayaw niya tumanggap ng kahit na anong explanation kapag kausap mo siya, malakas pa ang loob niya na manglait. as in! letche talaga! Bwisit! Lalo na kanina....ay poteeek...kanina...

Ganito kasi yun...

Nagpunta ako ng skul kasi meh mga work pa sa Office namin na hindi pa tapos. kelangan pa gumawa ng yearbook. kelangan andun ako kasi managing ed ako ng dyaryo. Pati yearbook sakop namin. Oh diba ang sipag namin? walang bayad yan! wala pa nga kaming discount! aray ko po! anyways...kapag sa kul lang naman ako pupunta at walang klase o ibang lakad, naka tsinelas or sandalas lang ako, t-shirt, tsaka short or 3/4 jeans. aba siyempre noh! ala naman pumorma pa ako! ano ako engot? ang inet pa man din! okay na eh, meh nagawa tapos pauwi na kami. nang palabas na kami ng gate, sinabihan kami ng guard na bukas daw bawal na yung naka-open footwear. nanggagalaiti daw si BUB! aba! sabi ko sa sarili ko, "putek! hayaan mo siya! manggalaiti siya magisa!". Okay pa kami nun eh, kasi malumanay yung pagsasabi samin, tapos pinatawag kami nung isa namin teacher na kausap niya sabi samin rin na bawal na nga raw yung ganun, tapos sumingit ba naman siya bigla, sabi niya:

"simula bukas, bawal na yung naka-tsinelas ha. bakit mukha bang palengke itong skul? ha? ayusin niyo yan, bawal yan."

nampucha! mukha ba kong mamalengke? mukha ba kong makikipagsapalaran sa talipapa para mamili ng mga malalansang isda?! tsaka anong season ba ngayon?! di ba summer? anong gusto niya?! letche talaga, napakamakaluma! pano siya, wala na ngang pasok, naka-complete uniform pa siya! letche! pag ako nainis talaga, at binanggit pa niya yun samin, masasagot ko na talaga yung matandang panot na yun! tignan natin! hindi lang talaga ako sanay na sumagot sa matatanda, pero paganapikon talaga ako, haaay...baka hindi na tumigil yung binganga ko!

balak ko sana bukas na mag-tsinelas pa para mainis siya lalo, kaso mapapahamak yung guard namin na mabait. sayang! Grrrrrrrr...kainis talaga! HMP!

DAIKIRAI NA!!!!!!!!! BUB!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRR.....

Jaded

He is a jerk
He thinks he is misunderstood
He sleeps in a shell
He is subtle
He is alone
He is a hypocryte
He is not real
He makes me feel bad
He is the most i want to help
He rejects me
For the last time...this is the last time

Disappointment

She is fun
She is good
She excels
She succeeds
She is perky
She understands me
She pricks me unnoticed
She makes me feel bad
For the second time...i hate it.

Edge

A Child sobs in a small corner
A Child wipes her tears
A Child stoods up and walk out
A Child seeks death in dark horizon

Nobody feels

my deadline for our class description is nearing haha! so i'm doing them now! and i'm happy to say that i'm having a good time writing things about my classmate! tee-hee!

atlast! I've downloaded Rewrite PV by Asian Kung-fu Generation!!! huweeee!!!!! Ah...the song is so nice! and also the PV! huweee!!!! i hope i can download all of the other PV aswell as the concert vidz. (*gulp* 72 Mb + 54.6 kb/s = mahabang download).

Gambarre!!!!

Okay! just passing by!

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

SHUICHI SHINDOU!!!

TANJOUBI NA! SHINDOU-KUN!!!!

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First and foremost let me greet my lil bro

Happy 11th Birthday!!!

Because of him we went to Megamall and had lunch at Kenny Rogers, where i ate my lovely yellow delicious corn muffins and feasted
on its famous roasted chicken!

Then we went to Timezone to play some arcade while Tita was in Great Image to blow up my lil bro's pic to be sent to my Dad abroad.
As always, two things i always play in the arcade, either its basketball or a shooting simulation game. Me and my bro always share the basketball game so its sort of a bonding game for the two of us. I played a vitual reality shooting game where my enemies pratically kills me 10 inches away from me so i like have to turn around my head gear and kill them. I was having fun killing those little twirps and unnoticely was revealing swear words in mid air. and when i was already done, (removed head gear) a kid with his parents where blankly staring at me. ahahahaha!!!! Whatever man! i simply looked for my bro! Another shooting game, haha! i dunno if i'm gonna
love it or hate it. Maybe both. I love it for it IS a shooting game then i've always seen it but its the first time i've played it. Always
noticed no one playing the game and now i know why. Well, you'll be easily noticed and watch by people telling themselves how stupid
you look docking from the screen as you enemies shoot you. Guessed it right folks! One of the features of the game is to survive your
enemies as if your right there! have to bend and hide yourself in nearby cars or desks to avoid being shot. I had a blast! Reality game
baby! But then, when i was done, i was tired and my legs hurt. It really hurts!!!!But i want to play that again! Chaep price of 10 php per game! Wooohooo!!!!! So that's why its has a sort of sensor around it! Waaaahhhh....i didn't get to play time crisis! shoot! oh well, next time!

While my brothers and Carlo (a kid na napakataba! isa siyang napakatabang bata!) were buying some PS2 cds, me and my tita went around the mall, well...to look around. LOLZ. we saw some plants up for sale, you know, those chineese plants that gives "good luck" to people. personally, i don't believe these things, its us that brings luck to our selves, we're the ones who move and decides our faith. and when everything is well and done, then that's LUCK. okay, back to reality! I saw ALOT of cactus there. some were really small and thought they were really cute...hehe...then i saw one particualr cactus in a shape of BRAIN!!! Hontou! the curves, the shape...eeewww...but...kinda amused me, and that would be a good plant! Nyahahahaha!!!! Check it out for youselves guys! Find it!
Mwahahaha!!! okay, enough, delirium, duh. Went inside the department store and saw that small sewing machine!!! Awwww....i want one!!! Since i'm so sick and tired of going to taylors to have my pants cut off the lenght i want, then I desire a personal sewing
machine myself! And the money is building up on us! 30 bucks per pants is that much of a big deal for me! And i just have so many
shirts i can costumize myself! And i don't have to put out a single penny, ne? So, when mom get's her bonus, i'm planning on
persuasing her to buy me one. I've mentioned it to her before, then she said: "Papabili ka nyan, di ka naman marunong?" Haller! My grandma knows how! Mao knows how! i can ask them to teach me!!!! huwaaaa!!!! Since that is answered, i just need to tell it to my mom! Blah. okay, DVD comes first! Huweee!!!! Am excited!

Last stop was Surplus.browsed through the blouse section and my tita showed me a black blouse with crumpled vest and a black ribbon in the middle!!! Huwaaa!!! Gothic blouse! I wanted to buy it, then she said: "Magagamit mo ba yan? Gagamitin mo ba yan?" Okay, that striked me. No, i wont use it till i get up as a gothic lolita. Final descision, uh uh, not buying. Then she showed me another black blouse. The ordinary, but just my taste. Ha! and fits me just right! After fitting it, went to another area and saw another gothic long sleeve! Huwaaa!!! Latest trend? I dunno.... Finally, i bought a maong pants (which i wanted for a long time). The black blouse (oridinary type) got left behind because my idiotic brother put it somewhere and forgot to bring it to the cashier!!! Damn it! Sayang yung libre!. Oh well....hope its still there the next time.

When i got home, i was having a sever tummy ache, maybe i ate too much again, and the pain even circulated around my back so i gave myself a rest. Since i wasn't feeling sleepy, grabed my Vampire Lestat book and continued on the page i left hanging. Armand i such a beautiful creature, even before Marius, my favorite vamp, turned him into who they are. And just as any man and woman can't resist this charm, Lestat wasn't able to fight his charisma either. And he did confess that he LOVED Armand. But was so curious of Marius from Armands visions that he has to seek the Child of the Millena and learn from him. Well, as the bastard that Lestat is, in Blood and Gold, Marius story, Marius showed Lestat, Those Who Must Be Kept and drank from Acacia without the keeper's permission! As he said in the book, he was never really a good follower of rules. You got that right! But then, Marius still loved him, it his personality, from a painter, to captain of a ship to a sold boy, Marius could love anybody! that's why i love him so much! And its this characters that i love so much in Anne Rice's books, they are so alive even if they are only fiction, and when the story is being foretold, its as if, Lestat is really the one telling the tale, not a made up story....haayyy...idol...
The tought struck me while watching Saiyuki Reload (still not up for another marathon -_-"), that was episode 16, and it revealed that
Goku before was afraid of snow. That little white cold element of ice scare the small god. I think i fancy anime characters who is all perky and fun turned serious...its amusing...its sad...and its beautiful. Anyway, because of this episode, i realized how winter can be such a sad season too...i've always taken the rain as my favorite concept when it comes to characters reminiscing a sad past. Goku explained why he was sad when it snows: "When it snows...all sounds disappears...its lonely...". Remember Goku was once a prisoner in a mountain and nobody visited him. Only Sanzo came to help him, that's why its he looks up to Sanzo as his light. Haayy...yes...snow...its freezing...and it could freeze a heart....

talking about light, i heared or read this quote somewhere: "The nearer you get to the light, the bigger the shadow becomes."
yes, i know...the more you reach for your dreams, the harder it gets. but let me tell you, the light is always greater than shadows. There will be no shadow if there is no light. Haha!

On to the news!!! Jeepneys on strike! Yes, they did, and i have to walk from Masilang to Tulay today! Just when i was in a hurry! hmp! Next! Bilang ng mga batang bilango, dumadami! another catch of this scoop, they mix the child prisoners to adults! tsk! tsk! that's baaaaddd...Kids who done a bad thing should be in Juevenile, notin those city jails, damn it! isasama niyo yan sa mga matatanda, mamaya maimpluwensiyahan pa yan pumatay ng tao! aguy! paano na ang kinabukasan ng bayan?! Officials! Move people!

okay...i feel like making a fic about Goku's sentimental thoughts...shall post it on fanfiction.net soon...huwaaahh...my account is almost rotten, have to clean up!

matta ne~~

Its been such a long time since i've submitted a work on FF.net. My account almost rot. ahahah!!!

Good thing Goku (Saiyuki) inspired me to type a fic immediately. Click here to read my fanfic! i'll really appreciate the comments! whether there or here!!!

domo arigatou gozaimasu!

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat a day!!!

oo, tanga ko, dahil mas gusto ko ang malayo na skul kesa sa malapit. but i know its good for me. i've always thought of UST as a good school, so prove it to me USTe! nyahahaha!!!!

After almost 4 hrs of walking, standing in line, bearing with the heat and boredom....gyaaaaaa...big thankies to my ever reliable Vampire Lestat book that kept me company all throughout the day, and of course to Kisha, Jennilyn and Miah whom i just met and had a few conversations with! Thanks for being so friendly!!!

Monday/Wednesday/Friday

AM
ECO 101 - 7:00-8:00
THY 1 - 8:00-9:00
SCL 101 - 9:00-10:00
LIT 201 - 10:00-11:00

PE - 1:00-3:00 PM (MONDAY)

Tuesday/Thursday

AM
ENG 101A - 7:00-8:30
LIT 101 - 8:30-10:00
CWG - 10:00-11:30
PHL 1 - 11:30-1:00

As of now, i just discovered that my PHL class is up to 1:00?! kala ko hanggang 11:00 lang ako lagi....gwaaa....buti nalang PE ko nasa monday, di ako gagabihin...hapon lang...haaay...so i'm assuming that THY means Theology? SCL is Sociology? PHL is Philosophy? and CWG is Creative Writing (G?)? huwaaa....no hands-on....no computer...no lab...no foreign language!!!!!!!! huwaaaaaaa!!!! i hope i don't get bored or i'll really shift to Com Arts!!! I want something to do with films... but i want to do better in writing too...i want to write a story that is unique...that i'm the only one that have written that kind of story and will be loved by many...that is my dream! Aja! Aja! Fighting!

oh well, that's that.

huwaaah....

its was a boring day at my dad's house...really.

loathsome.

gyaaahh...hate to admit. blah.

so now i'm back at my REAL house!!! ahaha!!! grew up here and always love it here! of course i never get bored here! i have a lot of stuff do do here. even if i don't have the PC, the TV, or the radio or some of my books to read, i can always clean the house as my mom always suggest! ahahaha!!!!

what a way to kill time! heh!

currently working on my [Laruku Project] which will be released exclusively for me! nyhahaha!!! hope it turns out as the way i've always wanted it to be! Gambarimasu!

On to serious things...i dunno...i've been in fancy of the theme [death]. These days its been the topic of my random poems, which i suddenly write when i want to ease my mind. Maybe it's the Lestat book, i don't know...i'm starting to view death as a beautiful thing...blood as the main character. The thought of being alone and living hopelessly, locking yourself from the world and hiding in your own shell...hmm...seems like a good story, but is this healthy for me?

mwahahaha!!!!

93=superstar!!!

okay. i think i just discovered the inner songstress in me! mwahahaha!!!

my mom bought this "magic mic" or whatever they call it. those mics that have pre-selected songs in it for you to sing. hehe....that. well, my mom told me she used it once when i was away (lang magawa), so i decided to give a shot myself. haha! since it has so many songs that i know, i sang just about anything! so abnormal nga ako sabi ng nanay ko, kasi yung mga intsik ang kinakanta ko, yes, baduy, pero f4 sila, eh masarap kantahin ang intsik sa karaoke eh! masisisi nyo ba ko? ehehehe... then things just became brighter for me when i discovered that there is a Voltes V in the song list!!! ahaha!!! the japanese one!!! i became all hyper and sing my heart out! mwahahah!!! and guess what, i got a 89 score the first time, and 92 the second time! mwahahaha!!! and just last night, i saw Yuu Yuu Hakusho's opening theme "Explosion" in the list! ahahah!!! i sang it and got the same scores!!! oh well, my mom lost, i have the highest score, Yeah!

one of the best thing about this karaoke session i conduct every night is when i sing the japanese songs and my mom told me that my voice is really for japanese songs....owww....is that flattery or sarcasm? eh? oh well! i'll take that as a compliment, thank you.

ja!

After watching American Idol on TV, news was the next show. I told my mom that she should be ironing her clothes for tomorrow's work, but refused saying she would watch the news first.

here's a little convo that got me writing here:

mom: nood muna akong news. di na me nakakabasa ng diyaryo eh.

me:ah...sige, akyat muna ko. baba ako mamaya. nood ako ng TV.

mom:alam mo, ikaw ang masscom na hindi mahilig sa news.

me:mamoy, hindi ako masscom. Literature ako.

mom:maski na. dapat nanonood ka pa rin ng news. hindi puro hapon ang alam mo.

ang sagot ko lang diyan eh, ayoko. bakit ba? oo, hindi ako mahilig manood ng news, hindi rin ako mahilig magbasa ng diyaryo, except na nga lang kung sa lifestyle section ng mga broadsheet o kung film or book review siya. nope, i'm not that. maybe because i don't care. dati mahilig ako manood ng SAKSI, but now, nah-ah. sa mga naririnig ko at nalalaman ko, naiinis ako. ang pakiramdam ko, isinasampal sa akin kung gaano na kabulok ang pamahalaan at kung gaano kagago ang mga manlolokong makapangyarihan na may hawak ng kaban ng bayan. kung gaano pinapahirapan ang mga mamamayan dahil sa mga sariling kasakiman nila. dahil diyan, kaya hindi na ako nakikibalita. but i have my voice. once asked about my opinion about a certain topic, i'll gladly lend my mind and briefings. para nga daw akong aktibista magsalita. at isa pa ito sa mga rason. masyadong kumukulo ang dugo ko sa mga isyung hindi mamatay-matay, at kung anu-ano na yata ang nasasabi ko.

siguro, kaya hindi ko na rin itinuloy ang journalism at masscom, dahil alam kong kailangan ko ang malaking pang-unawa sa mga pangyayari ngayon at kaalaman sa mga bagong pangyayari, na wala akong masyadong pakielam na pakielaman.

yun lang.

i'm constanly moved by the things around me. from the things i watch to the people sourrounding me. this kind of adoptation, is making me have doubts about myself. sometimes i donn't know and would like to ask what is the concept of my actions. why at one moment i am happy. then at another moment i feel lonely and alone. at this point of my life, for the 17 years i've lived my life, i'm still searching for some answers...i thought, as many tells me and thinks of me, i am a naturally jolly person. i laugh heartily and befriends strangers if given the right opportunity. but i have a side that many not knows and perhaps, may never know too...for myself is still a mystery to that side of me...i know what are those that could affect me the most, yet i indulge in those mediums. it probably is an addiction. however, at the same time, they are the ones that makes me think like this. it makes me really frustrated. it makes me frustrated that i can't get a hold of myself and my emotions properly...

answer me. are humans capable of handling joy and sadness at the same time?