Kiwi

waaah...havent posted for a while...
well...let's see...what had happen to me anyway for this week????

uhmm...this thursday me and some schoolmates went to Don Bosco school in Makati. it was for some Mass Media Symphosium thingy...that only us and the Bosconians attended. other schools that was invited backed out on the last minute. it was ok. the lecture was a good one. Prof. Rene has a good way on discussing things to us. oh! and he's from DLSU so...you know what i mean. hehehe...the school was a big one! much like a university! or...yeah, it was really big! i think my school is only 1/8 of it! seriously. hehehe...then made some few friends...ate some ice cream...went home.

friday? NO CLASSES!!!! wooo!!! teacher's day celebration. then went over to SM North to meet up with Rochi to get the L'Arc cds that i ordered...wehehehe....added to my laruku collections are, OTHER SIDE OF HEAVENLY, HEAVENLY FILMS, and REAL LIVE AT TOKYO DOME! wee!!!!! then she also gave me an audio cd that has Pierrot songs! domo arigatou Rochi! tell me what gift you want ha! then i also saw Mei and 2 of their classmates. walked around the mall, syang ang 30 min ride sa MRT eh, hunting kami ng buks sa Booksale, then rochi showed me this book that has, eherm! Homosexual issues in it. well, if you think im weird diggin into stuffs like this, then go ahead, i think im weird too. ;p

came saturday, i met up with pals from our gumi. its our EB day so... anyways, first i was with Mari she has some cds to claim from me (gauze and gohatto-->>kaloka ba?). then the others came. first time i met Pia and Jane, and Zill and Fatima that akki introduced to us. Mari went home early coz she needs to study for her exams and the rest of us went off to ENCORE ENCORE for the Moonchild film viewing at the WAA party. ehehehe...so what's with the Moonchild film that anime and jrockers in the philippines is so hiped about? 3 things i could say. GACKT, HYDE, YAOISH scenes. Gackt and hyde are famous jrockers in japan. we, as fans, are happy for this ^^. what's with the yaoish thingy? there are some scenes in the movie that would make any yaoi fan scream in exitement and non-yaoi fans go . and gackt and hyde just makes a pretty good couple in a fanfic..nyehehehe...maybe i'll be making a Moonchild review here soon. flames for me!!! yay! okies, so in short, the movie is the main theme of the eb. it was worth it anyway. nyahaha!!!!!

well...just waiting for ultramaniac to be aired by 4 today, i wasn't able to watch it last friday.

---->>>>owari<<<----

wahhh!!! this is a sin! i totally forgot about hydo's bday! alam ko nalala ko ng 28 then nwla sa isip ko on 29! gosh! nweiz! belated na rin hydo-kun! nice movie! [moonchild]

wondering why such a title? ehehe...got that from hyde. he said it in the heavenly concert. i think 'other side of heavenly' concert. so what's the point of this entry? it's all L`Arc~en~Ciel baby! oh yeah! ahaha!!! i recently watched 'heavebly films' con by laruku. heck, can't recover from the "ACCIDENTS HAPPEN SUDDENLY" ken-nadapa-kasi-takbo-ng-takbo thing! ahaha!!! ok, ok! i take back all the rant that i gave to people that laughed at ken from that fall. owww....its just so funny! really! i still laugh like a mad man whenever i remember that scene! ahaha!!!! i myself will laugh at ken's face about that and ask him how he felt. just hope he doesnt kick me in the face for that! ^^ of course he wont! he loves me! bwahahahaha!!!!!

anyways seeing the members of laruku in those days that i think was around '95, you wont imagine its them! seeing tetsu looking like a mom, [i'll explain later] hyde looking sooo much of a girl, ken in make-up is unbearable! really, i hate him in make-up. and sakura as laruku's drummer. hehe...got used to yukkie. ok... since its all l'acr entry, how bout analyzing each member ne? nyahaha...'ere goes nothin...

hyde: since he's the front man, i'll put him up first. well, as expected, talbog ang beauty ng mga babae sa beauty ni HYDE. and im not kidding. first time i saw "blurry eyes" i was like "syet! si hyde ba yan? ang ganda! *amused look*". seriously. hehehe... then in "and she said" pv. my reaction..."ang ganda nyaaaa!!!!!!!!!! kung babae lang to si hyde certified tomboy nako! ang ganda nyaaaaa!!!! *sabay sakal sa tuwa sa kaklase ko*" ahaha!!! and i just noticed, hyde's kinda, naughty in heavenly films. or so it seems. i dunno what song is that or i cant seem to remember but he was following ken around and plays with my koi's coat/jacket/whatever that is. yeah and ken's like with a big big grin on his face! nyahahaha!!!! maybe this is the reason there's so many kenXhyde doujin around! XD so what more? uhmmm....why is his hair like that? he looks like a woman! a woman i say! and the way he tucks it at the back of his hair like that is so...cute ^^.

tetsu: heheh...why the did i say he looks like a mom in heavenly films? coz of his hair. and his style of dressing. you'll never imagine that's tet-chan. from the long red hair + the simpleness of his outfit that made him look like a mother more to the ultra genki look from the hair to the adorable style in shorts and cute shirts! platforms ne? he's got tons of that! that's one of tetsu's signature style. one thing that's there for sure even in heavenly films is the "ikot-ikot+play ng bass" movement! ahh! so genki! but watch out he's still the leader of the group. ^^

ken: oh my koi. what can i say..."ken ang tanga moh! woo! grabeh! pinabigat mo ang pakiramdam ko sa kakatawa dahil nadapa ka! bwahahahaa!!!!!" well...made me love ken more. ahaha! i just really hate the make-up! oh please! doesnt really suit him well. he's still the joker of the group. really, at all times. ahaha!!! cant say more, kayo na bahala! but one thing that's really noticable from ken is his skills in playing his instrument. maji, i love the solo guitar parts in their songs! lalo na pag painapaiyak niya yung gitara! kakoiiii!!!!!!!!!!!

sakura: uhhmmm...well...yun, mukha pa rin siyang bangkay. kala mo di pinakain. nweiz magaling rin naman siya mag-drums, just so happens yukkie and a bunch of other guys that plays the same instrument is much better than him. but i like the cosplaying thingy saku did. reminds me of Onizuka sensei.

wahaha!!!! one thing that stired the yaoist in me is when hydo comes up to tetsu and makes the man sing. so what's wrong with that? nothing really. its just me, seeing hyde put his face sooo close to tetsu, and seeing tetsu's face that i cant really decribe if he's annoyed or embarassed. hehehe...

waaah!!! next week L`Arc~en~Ceil in Pop Jam!!!!! we waited long for this! yey!!!!! finally! hope they interview laruku! ohh!!! im soooo excited! ahaha!!!! im so hyped bout laruku again! their still my no. 1 band! *wants so watch other laruku concerts*

anyways here's a little convo me and my kuya had last night. well i just love it when niichan talks to me like he's so curious bout j-stuffs and all. i mean he thinks im weird loving stuffs like these. anime is fine with him, certainly he loves shounen animes like SD, hajime no ippo, GTO and dragon ball and some animes were introduced to me by him. sugoi ne? ^.~

ok here goes...

k: *puts the phone down* oi.
m: *sings while watching heavenly films* *lingon* eh?
k: movie pla yung moonchild.
m: *surprised* ha?!
k: movie pla yun.
m: oo nga. pano mo nalaman? napanood moh? palabas ba sa sine? *excited*
k: hinde.
m: *sweatdrop* ha? pano mo nalaman?
k: narinig ko lang dun sa nakasabay ko sa bus dati.
----->>>>intermision! okey, bat ganun...siya me nakakasabay siyang mga taong ganun, ako hinde?
m: ahhh...*points at hydo* siya yun oh...siya yung bida.
k: oo nga. si hyde. sino ba yung gackt?
m: ha? ah, pareho niya yun, singer rin.
k: ahhh...*kamot ulo* bakla ba yan? [hyde]
m: hinde! me anak na yan!
k: eh ano?
m: me asawa yan eh!
k: eh ano? si arnel ignacio nga eh, meh anak at asawa pero bakla pa rin. di pla, bisexual.
m: ahh...fine, eh di bi.
k: bi nga, mukha naman eh.
m: ganda nga eh, mukhang babae.
k: di naman eh. mukahang bi. tigan moh.
m: *looks at hyde* bala ka nga. basta maganda siya.
k: kulit mo.
m: si gackt daw baka bi. (no offence poh sa mga gackt fans!)
k: ahh...*lakad na palayo*

i swear, my bro notices things so amusingly its fun talking to him in this state. nyahaha!!!! and he pronounce L`Arc~en~ciel in a funny way too! haha!!!

this freagin life is getting in my nerves. yung *tanging yaman* na scrpit na yan na pinaghirapan ko gawin for 5 straight days will be *tanging yaman* na babalewalain ng mga *tanging yaman* na mga classmate ko! kesho gusto daw nilang pagsamahin na yung class for the Noli play! *tanging yaman* nila! mga bwiset! eh di sana sa simula palang ganun na gnwa nila para di na kami nahirapan. bakit ba may mga taong selfish?!?! eh *tanging yaman*, kasi di nila natapos yung script nila, papagsamahin bigla yung mga groups para matakpan yung *tanging yaman* nilang kapalpakan! putcha! iniwanan sa ere bigla yung pinaghirapan ng grupo ko! bakit biglang napabor yung teacher ko sa kanila?! *tanging yaman* talag....mga biwseet! hindi pa ako nakasam sa gamol kasi kelangan ko tapusin yung *tanging yaman* na class legacy revised version! *tanging yaman* talagaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! turns out tama lahat ng hula skin ni emil...tang ina.

nweiz here's a Q&A that i got from mari

1. Dir en grey? cool band, good songs, and hella lots of beautiful members.

2. Pierrot? love kirito's voice. that got me hooked on them.

3. Buck-Tick? heard of them but i dont have anysongs here.

4. Malice Mizer? nice. goth-rock stuff. uhmm the costumes are too much for me but i like their songs.

5. hide (solo)? nice. want to dl more songs after hearing "lemoned i scream".

6. hide w/ Spread Beaver? dunno...

7. Zilch? eh?

8. Oblivion Dust? di ko kilala...

9. Luna Sea? i like their songs!

10. Guniw Tools? "??"

11. Plastic Tree? its ok. kindda mellow...

12. X Japan? oh yeah! rock!

13. Sex Machineguns? havnt heard any song from them.

14. La'Cryma Christi? good songs! love "mirai"

15. Raphael? panagaln lang alam ko sa kanila. and some members from a fanfic

16. Schwein? ha?

17. David Bowie? heard he's great.

18. Penicillin? la pa ko songs nila.

19. Machine? sino sila?

20. Gackt? nice! nice! love gackt's songs!

21. L'Arc? no.1 pa rin! love them!!!!!!

22. Kuroyume? ...

23. Shazna? just heard it from my friend.

24. Mad Capsule Markets? "???"

25. Glay? ok.

26. SADS? i like them. i like the vocalist's voice.

27. How'd hide's death affect you? ha? patay na siya? bakeeeet?!?!

28. How many j-rock CDs do you own? 1 gauze cd. shuckz, dont even have a laruku album. T_T

29. How many fan clubs do you belong too? dont like them.

30. What is your most embarrassing CD in your collection? i used to have a westlife tape. gave it away.

31. Do you listen to it? hell no.

32. What CD did you buy because you only liked one song but you ended up loving the whole CD?
the calling. i only wanted "where ever you will go" but ended loving the whole album.

33. What CD did you buy that was a total waste of money? hmmm...

34. How old were you when you first started getting jrock? 14

35. Can you play an instrument? konti. drums.

36. What song(s) do you always get stuck in your head? otso-otso. its everywhere! pano ba namang hinde!?!

37. What song can you just not stand? morning musume songs.

38. What group should be banned from the music scene? evryone deserves to be heard.

39. If you could make your own Fuji Rock Festival, who would you invite? laruku, dir en grey, luna sea, x-japan, hide, rip slyme [blue be-bop], pierrot, plastic tree, miyavi, EVE [kahit taga-korea sila, rock eh.]

40. What group do you listen to that no one else seems to like? sads

41. What got you hooked on your all-time favorite group? chronicle vcd of laruku and my jrock life started. DEG coz of my bestfriend.

wooooow....what a bc week it is! really i have tons to do but i have to take some break anyway right? well what can i say? oh! L'Arc was on Pj last week! and i didnt get to watch it! hooray for me! bleah. T_Tbefore it was when Hyde appeared on PJ to sing Horizon and i was so excited coz they said, while interviewing hyde, there will be some clips of Laruku and i sooo wanted to see that but was unable to....what a lucky me, na?a anyways, the good side of this is i got to eat 'good' food i a very fancy resto. it was tita marie's bday so dad decide to take us out to dinner in shangri-la hotel. i dont know what the heck entered through their head to eat at such an expensive place. 950 per head almost got me off of my seat. and im not used being so modest in such a place, pang fast food lanes lang talga ko eh. nyahahaha....okei...maybe this is karma coz i got into soooo much lies that particular day...i knw for sure i'll go to hell. oh, i met up with iris last sunday coz she asked me to assist her to SM North. she's not familiar wit the place, might as well go with her. then we met up with rochi to claim her CDs. then the rest just happend....

im still busy at this moment, probebly im researching for my assignment in Filipino or finishing the last section in my class legacy project. that job really squeezed my brains out! i couldnt chat with anybody for long coz i have to finish the damn thing and i need a lot of ADJECTIVES. adjectives i say! adjectives! and its not easy to think if your sitting in a classroom full of noisy people that are ignorant of their soroundings and a room that is burning hot inside! i guess those are the only things i've been doing for the past days...only one thing that disturbes me...

what would you do if you have a really good friend coz you have the same interest and you got to "infect" that person with your virus in loving the things you fancy. but would you still be happy if almost all the things you do is being copied by that person? will you still like it if that person acts like a fool for you? how would you feel if you just notice one day, all you do, all the things you buy, the way you would design your notebook to your penmanship is being copied by that person? should i just ignore it? i dont really mind...its just a little creepy...

ei minna!!! hapi puso hoh! yun lang!

got this from mari


You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


What Kind of Smile are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

well, its valentines day but i dont give a damn---much. its just an ordinary day with a special label. tse.

i just watched "dark water" a while ago with my mom. and both me and her thought "..." "kain nalang tayo. lang kwenta." i mean it. the story was weak. it didnt left me with anything to be scared off. oh well, that's that. but the mother in that movie reminded me of Yoshiki. yes, yoshiki-sama of x-japan. at some angle, the facial expression of the actress reminds me of yoshiki. hehe...weird.

oh! and! ahaha!!! this is really amusing for me! i didn't know tha one of the NEOtaku member actually was the person i bought my Gravitation cds! nyahah!!! and i've been looking for his site for soooo long now. finally! i can watch yaoi again!!!!! weee!!!!! sooo happy!!!!

waaah...soooo bc i forgot to greet 2 bday celebrants from DEG!

kaoru and Kyo!!!!!! shuckz! otanjoubi to the two!!!!! =)

uuuuy!!!!!!! bday ni kyo nung 16!!!! hapwi birthday! and kaoru today! otanjoubi omedetou!!!! (mas formal? nyhaha ^^)

waaah...daming trabaho sa skul. everyday kaming pinupudpod sa praktis ng mga play. projects here and ober der! sheeet!!!! hindi ko na alam kung pano ko pagkakasyahin oras ko! grrrr...plus some damn pressure with that prom! kainis! bakit pa ba kasi ginwa ang prom?! sino ba gumawa ng prom?!! problema ko pa ang damit...haay...de baclaran nlang ako. okei lang 1 day lang naman eh. nyahaha!!!!

oh, my grandma just past away yesterday so pls pray for her.

its shinya's birthday today! and kirito tooo!!!! hapwi birthday!!!!

nweiz..well my grandma had been buried already in manila memorial park. i hope she's happy together with grandpa now. i still feel kinda tired coz there's just so much work and im not in the mood to tell so much but anyweiz, well im almost finished with my projects. i think the research paper is the only thing that's left to do! wee!!!! and JS is this thursday and im still having trouble with the dress. i mean the chinese top is reaally fine with me! but the skirt mom choose is a thumbs down. its too tight. i wont be comfortable in those. i'll only bring myself trouble during the whole night. and that jst sucks.

well last sunday, me and my classmate went to some places around metro manila to shoot some photos about arts and famous places and stuff that my "super arte" teacher in ARTS gave us as project. duh?! its just so costly...have to pay 75php for fare, then various entrance fees and things you'll find along the way that i was not able to resist. of course there's the necessity of junk foods. its a must for our little "field trip". and my leader is planning on another one. she says the photos are not enough. -__________-; really. i think i spent 300 bucks in one day. and that just stinks coz i have to buy my yaoi cds that i've been craving for the last few days! owwww....oh well. hope i can grab them by next week. in intramuros i bought a pair of those earings that have chains in it that connects it together. so it has this uhmmm...cool effect? atleast that's what i feel when i use it. hehehe...and a ring with chains too. but i really want the ring that i saw in takky's hands. that silver one that has a krus clinging on it. i saw another cool stuff in that "tsange" area. those bracelets that has a chain with a ring. looks cool with the "kurapika" hands effect. weee!!!! i didn't bought it coz of the hello kitty designs. -_-;; although the trip was really tiring, it was fun anyway. kahit nag mistula kaming sardinas sa service, ok lang, it was fun. ^^

ohhh....its sooo fun seing L'arc again in shows and collecting their stuffs again!!! wooo!!! feel like im being a newbie on jrock stuffs again. ^_______^ well well, im looking forward to hearing "hitomi no juunitsu" soon. heard its really good. and it brought back the old Laruku!!! XD and im writing fanfics again!!!! (am i using the word "again" too much or what?!)

weee!!!! Get backers is on air on animax everyday now!!! shiawase!!! Ban is sooooo kakoi looking! shweee!!!! i dunno what's come over me but im searching for shoujo-ai stuffs...kinda curious. oh well, its part of my homo study anyways. cant focus on 2 guys forever, ne? but speaking of shounen-ai, i just gave my desktop a make-over. i just got a reaaly toned Gravitation wallpaper. and i love shuichi's hair color so i made the theme of my pc to pink and girly? ehehehe....not reaaly. i just thought the color looks good with the pic. ^^

wow, pretty long post i got there again, oh well, im not gonna be posting soon again i guess. matta ne minna!

OTANJOUBI SHINYA and KIRITO!!!

i could feel the heat...summer is really near...i could feel it everytime a sweat drops from my body, its freakishly ATSUIII!!!!! *pew*

anyways, this was an OK day. nothing reaaly happen and bad luck hasnt struck on me. YET. -_-" hehehe...but something in english class came up. just want to tell ya guys.

it was english time. last subject, we were burning our butts on our seats waiting for the bell to save us to that ultimate boredom and supeeeer anoying teacher. so me and my set of friends decided to just chat, ignoring the poor but still supeeer annoying teacher in front. sometimes i feel sorry for her coz all the efforts she's giving all comes down the drain, but its just so annoying that she doesnt know social relations with us. she's always screaming and making a face at us that its really annoying and sometimes i think she doesnt know what she's teaching us or what level she's teaching. oh anyways! coz its shinya's birthday today, emil and aia was making fun of me. then out of shinya, hyde and tidus they made some...er..JOKES. it was kinda funny...hehehe...

emil: mitch, use SHIYA in a sentence.
mitch: ha?
emil: "shin no ba may birthday? shi ako o shinya? ^^ (gets nyo ba?)
all: *tawa* hahaha!!!!

aia: a woman asks a guy. "what are you doing?" "im HYDEing" (eheheh...)
all: ehehehe!!!!

emil: mitch, use TIDUS in a sentence.
mitch: di ko alam.
emil: ganto. meh bumibili sa tindera. "ale, magkano yung powder panlaba?" "ano dito? tidus!"
(get's ba? ^-~)
all: bwahahaha!!!

well, the jokes worked for me especially when the two started their hysterical laughs! it makes english class better anyways. ^____________________________^

You are Hikaru Utada! You're not really from Japan, you're infact an American! But you're quite famous in Japan so it's overlooked lol. You started out singing mostly R&B music, and got your first big hit when you were 15 years old! @_@ You have a beautiful voice with an amazing range. Throughout the years you've come to sing more variety of songs, you're latest album featuring R&B, Ballads, Pop and Rock. Now that's what I call well-balanced! You also married a man who's about 13 years older than you O_o. Well, if you love him....
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how sensitive are you?
14-19 Sensibly Sensitive

Your friends love that you're sympathetic and understand their feelings, but you also know how to be assertive when yours are hurt. Maybe you've had a strong role model, like and older sister, who's taught you the difference between a tactless comment and a full-on dis. And if she's always been there for you, chances are you do the same for the people you care about. Right on!

waaah...okei, everything ready for today...JS...shuckz...i wonder what kind of hell my friends will bestow on me after they see me in a dress later on. T_T this is torture...anyways, my suit's theme is "chinese", asian, its fine with me! wooo!!!! and my shoes aint too high so there should be no problem later on with my dear feets. i wish...so me and my mom went to gamol to buy my shoes, went all over the place to find something suitable then laid my eyes on the "chinese" printed shoes. solb ang problema! then went to pizza hut to chill and chat, eat some very goooood food! i just really love pizza. i dont care if its JS tomorow and i might gain weight again, as long as its pizza! pizza! pizza! ^^

then i bought a manila bulletin newspaper today for our homework in AP to cut out the theme for the EDSA Revolution anniversary. then at the foreign section, there's this article about "gay and lesbian marriage" going on around the country in the US. particularly cities like Chicago, Florida, and Mexico. some politicians agree on this same-sex marrige, some dont. the government is still settling agreements on this kind of wedding for originally, Man and Woman are the only beings accounted as true recievers of the Sacrament of Matrimony. which brought me to the thought, my project in CL is Matrimony. should i state there this kind of marriage? and to add im pro same-sex marriage. hmmm...should i? im also thingking using this topic as my research work...should be interesting...n_n
oh and my yaoi cds are done! i could get them by saturday! wooopeeedoooo!!!!!!

ok ok, i take back all the things i said about the prom. To sum it all up, it was one hella fun night for me and everybody else i know. Really.

First my mom and me went to a salon to get my feet and hands glamed up for the occassion. The only thing i didn't like about it is when she got my feet a manicure in a deep red color! Duh! i dont need that for my feet! The natural color would be fine but a deep red?! Okey…she’s paying for it… can’t object. -_- Then when we got home, did a little surfin round the net for the last time that day at 3:30 mum prepared my make-up and hair. I actually had fun in this part coz I was teasing my mom and I would erase the make-up whenever possible and she’s not looking then we’ll have to do it over and over again. Making fun of my mom is really pleasurable for me! Haha! Then around 4:30 my dad picked me up. What I didn’t know is my old man here didn’t know that place either! Oh well, we arrived safely and at time anyway. ^^

After I got off the car, saw Aira then took some pictures with our parents before entering the place. Uhmm…what could I say everybody looks good! As our SC vice said, it was really a special night for everyone and its really anticipated. When we got inside, had our individual photos taken while we still look pleasing to the eyes, then seated ourselves at our designated tables. Also by this time, Aia was with us. Ehehe…the funny thing here is the three of us, aia, aira and me fashioned an “Asian” look. Me in a Chinese theme, Aia in a semi-Chinese look, and Aira have the stylish traditional look of a Japanese with her. ^_____________________^ Then the program proceeded, almost slipped there when my name was called in the class legacy part, ehehe… the floor was slippery! But some really fell down. Ouch! Dinner was served then the exchange of candles and flowers proceeded and the party started!!!

Once the music started, I dunno what came over me but I began dancing like a mad man as well as some friends of mine. Sometimes we will have a showdown! Really I saw other people strut their stuff and I never imagined they could move like that! XD but when the slow music started…uhmm…I sit down. Ehehe…well, at least two kind men asked me to dance. Kinda awkward but okay. They’re my friends anyway. ^^ However… one person that I was expecting to dance me didn’t asked me. And to say he’s my best friend! Tse! Oh well…then the JS ended with a stroke of bad luck for my friend. A tricycle hit her mom just after she left for the prom. Please pray for her and her mom.

Anyways, got home after we took home my friend, slept and woke up with a very sore body. Oh well… back to normal days.

ei peepz! im looking for Pierrot's Yuyami Suicide PV. help here please!
if you want to view some of the clips of the vid click here

thankies!

ALONE

“I never knew I could felt such hurtful feelings
Such as infidelity complex…
Insecurity…
And most of all…hate.”

“It’s so hard to carry these feelings and still
Showing a smile outside to the world…
You can never show the feeling of guilt…
If you don’t want trouble.”

“They say I’m stupid, I’m an idiot, I’m ignorant, insensitive
I’m a keepsake…I never knew hearing these words…
Over and over again…
Would hit me right bottom”

“Though I say my complaints, the root of all these…
Is my own carelessness…
I acted too laid back to notice my own mistakes in action…
And I have admitted to myself that I am the loser that they say
I am…”

“My eyes want to cry; my heart feels like screaming,
My mind tells me to keep patient for verb ling my emotions might not get me…
Anywhere…
My words, unheard…yes, I’m always the faithful listener…”

“They say it’s my nature to understand people, I’m the one who understood,
Be the one to understand them. Be open to hear what they have to say,
Keep it; make them feel good…with that…I do those…so there’s no one to listen
To what I have to say…sometimes I feel so…so…ALONE.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

oh well...so much for a bad night. im having fun making ANIME as my research work. ehehe...never knew anime has soooo many branches and everythin! oh well...still has 8 days to go and im almost done! yatta! ehehe...i dunno..since im a SADS fan, that one guy that sang at PJ, sounds like the vocalist of SADS, is that him going solo?! hmmm...