Kiwi

miyuchi

Complicated.

I don't know how to describe my dad's attitude.
Just that after this day, though he has done his part as a father and fixed some holes which he was partly responsible for, also, was that I also realized how great he is on getting on my nerves.

He's full of pride, he's egoistic and so freagin' stubborn that my patience can't stretch for mine and his sanity's sake. If I slap him more words that mirror just how much of a stubborn bastard he is sometimes, he'll cry. Or else, he'll just tell me again that I'm not trying to understand him. And so goes his all-time favorite technique of making us feel pity for his situation.

Whatever.

I simply hope that after that long talk (with all the drama), he would finally change.
For the better.

Yes, there was terrible drama earlier. Tears were shed, my blood boiled then I just laughed it all together. Good thing I wasn't castrated for not actually sobbing? >D

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Writing

I am. AGAIN. FINALLY.

You know, I always felt like there was this void in my soul because I lacked the activity of writing. Yes, I have been reading plenty, but satisfying my love for words and images, I realized, would only be realized fully if I have done my job to write down mine.

So thank you, SHINee for giving my muses back.

But not to worry, I'm planning on continuing my one-shots for Kagrra, possibly for the GazettE, too.

Problem is, so many of it had been left pending that I don't know where to start. D:

I'm not getting butt-hurt for the lack of appropiate comment counts for my fics and ego, so I just post away and surprise myself on how it will be recieved by readers. I'm still warming up, but I hope I'd improve and just write write write.

BECAUSE IT DAMN FEELS GOOD.

ヾ(＠°▽°＠)ﾉ

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Signs

Maybe the plan to finally leave the company will piush through next month?

I have the following requirements--which I take as signs--to get my ass and will out of the job:

*regularization

*excellent mark

*a student knowing that I am a Filipino

They are completed.

If you ask me why I'm leaving such a relaxed job, well, I dunno myself. I want a higher pay, or I just want new experience. But I know if I take my leave, it's a whole new adjustment for me. And I can't be impulsive on this, so I'm taking my time to think.

I love teaching and helping, and I love my students, but we all move on at some point.

I dunno.

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Done here.

Me wants to watch Aiice in Wonderland. Don't you?

miyuchi

I'm not blogging much but that doesn't mean I won't be spamming randomness from time to time.



BREAD

I dream of an evasive bread one delightful afternoon. Siesta time is bliss, yes, but dreaming of bread that doesn't want to be taken to the counter to be payed for, taken out and get devoured by human is disturbing indeed.

I have a favorite bread shop here named BREAD TALK. The layout of the place is open, always bright and spacious. Oh so very clean (aside for some crumbs left on some platters) because the food are left out in the open for the costumers to chose freely.

I dream of wanting a certain bread, but whenever I would put it in my tray, it disappears. After a while, it disappears again and again even if I know I was squeezing it, holding firmly so it won't go away. But it never stayed for long. In my dream, the layout of Bread Talk was the very opposite from reality: dirty, old, cluttered. I should've known something was weird, but my main focus was to get the bread. Until I woke up, it remained evasive.

When I remembered this dream, I thought that maybe it's saying something to me. When I researched on the net, it says that bread actually is a good symbol, a positive symbol, even sometimes symbolizing spiritual growth. But the bread in my dream was unreachable, avoiding me, so does that mean I'll have bad luck? Even worse, will my life turn upside down because I lack spirituality?




DETERMINATION

I told myself I'll lose weight this year.
No seriously, I marked this date to be the start, and so far I'm doing a good job. Though I have to remind my mom to lessen my rice for lunch. I have to cut everything down and start exercising. I'm not even trying to be thin, I just want the flabs to be gone, particularly those around the middle, and I'll be damn happy.

I want this kind of figure back:

Taken I think five years ago, and I never appreciated it.
Damn, after years of teasing, the mockery finally got to me.

So maybe consistency is something I have been lacking for, maybe for life? Is it a trait? Hopefully not. So while I was looking through a stack of planners a while ago, I really wanted to replace the one I had now for the bigger, grander one. I can always do it, and never mind the efforts I've gone through preparing that planner, but I thought if I could drop things so easily in the middle, I'll never be able to stand up for things that I don't only want to archive, but because they'll bring me to places, put me to places, I can only imagine for now.

Impulse is another enemy. This is a dominant trait of an Aries, but I figured I can't use that excuse forever, so I might as well fix my life and use that trait well. It's not always a bad thing; not always.

So control! Conquer!!
My student told me that if I would be able to do one thing for 21 days straight, I'll be able to change my life. I'll try. I pray that I'll even remember trying.

GAMBARE! AJA!



SHINee

Well, this is not really a big deal, maybe just musings of a fangirl?

I was hurt, I guess, when a friend of mine told me she hates SHINee because they are trying to be like DBSK, or trying to be as big as DBSK.

I'll argue with that a bit and even drag the boys down in the process.

They have a LONG WAY TO GO.
In tagalong, "Marami pa kayong kakaining bigas" baka kaban pa mga bata.
Performance wise, hosting wise, singing wise and choreography wise, they need to improve still, a lot. Performing live is still not their forte and the songs tended to get eaten because they also needed to focus on the dancing. This should be both given in excellency. But they are young, very young. Experience would still teach them more so I think people should wait for that first. Just give them a chance to prove themselves since they have the potential to really make it big.

Fanbase wise, Super Junior would even eat them.

Even if they are young and cute and always nodding to the point that you'll think they look obediently stupid, they're still adjusting. And we all know their not saints, they have their own diva-ness.


So there. I wasn't annoyed, really. Just a bit hurt. I don't want any of my fandoms to be taken the wrong way, even if my reasons won't be understood in the end, at least I did my job to defend how I see them.

And just because no matter how silly it sounds, fandom makes me happy.
Of course the yaoiness are the main culprits and thank goodness they have talent.

And so because others take them as underdogs, I shall love them more.
*HUGSTHEBOYZ*



and PS. KEY (of SHINee) DANCING TO 4minute's "MUZIK" WAS SO DISTURBING. HIS EXPRESSION, CHEST PUMP AND HIP SWAYING WERE ALL TOO GOOD AS A WOMAN TO EVEN REMEMBER HE'S A GUY. HE DANCED TOO SEXY TO TAKE HIM AS STRAIGHT. And I already noticed this when they danced to "Gee" and "Tell Me Your Wish" before.

OH KEY.
OH KIBUM, you break my heart. If you are gay for Minho, Taemin or Onew, I would accept.
But if you're all diva and gay, well, spare me the heart break. *sniff*



SLEEP

I need that.
Nuff said.
Chow.

miyuchi

...to smoke and drink.
8D

This new year celebration, I was more than willing to show my bad girl side to my relatives. Maybe I had my ego inflated since I turned 21 and earning money for myself and my family. I've been at legal age for years (and stepping up the ladder every year, naturally) so I thought it was time to show some habits I have up my sleeve.

My cousins and I started drinking beer and I called for cigarettes when I didn't notice my mom standing behind me. She whacked me on the head for God knows how long with a horn, asking me with such a motherly-voice (I almost lol-ed), then asked me for a stick too. She said she'll join in.

WUT.

It was my cousins, me and my mom smoking and drinking Red Horse beer at our grandpa's veranda. Next, my Tito and grandpa also started their own sticks. 8D


So I was a bit disappointed at how we didn't have the ruckus for New Year, just with loud mouths, bickering and laughing at such things before us, but this turn of events made it all worth my welcome for 2010. It was a great bonding session with my relatives. ^^

Although not the greatest way to show love and camaraderie, for me it was.
I'll drink and smoke a thousand times to that to heavens.

SO GREAT WELCOME 2010!!!

But I'm not sure if I'll be able to keep my word to my students and keep up with Korean tradition of waiting for the first break of dawn for the new year because sleep is also pulling me in. I think I'll be absorbing a few stories of my underage beauties first before leaning to the dream world finally.

So one of my students told me that Koreans who doesn't wait for sunrise to pray are lazy, well, I'm not Korean and I've admitted to my slothfulness a long time ago. So hear ye, I'll just doze off.

And for final words, HELLO THAR 2010.
Don't be a bitch and give me something worth living for--of course, other than the ones I have now. Yes I demand, because that's the only thing I can do now.


Kudos amigos!
AYO~~~~

miyuchi

...my new piercings, that is. Stop your malice, you.

Haha!

Yes, at last, after two years (I think) I've survived another piercing session, this time manually. :D

So after 13, the new ones are easy to spot actually. One is black and the other is silver; they both are not included along the lobe line of the ear. :DDDDD I've always wanted these two piercings, and so when Mao suggested of a good place, a nice guy who can do the job and doesn't ask for too much money, then impulse plays. I also missed the feeling of getting one~ No, I'm not a masochist, or maybe just exclusive for this kind of activity. 8D So in total, 15 earrings can fit my two ears. Yey.

And sure I don't know when I'll stop. >D

But I'm pretty sure, Key-boyfriend and Pareng Yomi are proud because they are my inspirations when I decided to get these.

Impulse again, I saw a bag much too similar to Nodame's bag in Nodame Cantabile to ignore:

I've always wanted this bag! So even if it wasn't so cheap (for that kind of store), I couldn't let it go.

Ka-ching! Ka-ching!

And as I love to pleasure myself with things I fangirl about, here's another feisty buy out of my wallet's sanity:

Ah yes, I haven't announced my love for SHINee, my underage lovelies. I feel so much like Humber Humbert in Lolita sometimes when I flail over these boys. Well, it's hard to abstain from them especially when they are talented in so many ways other than what they are labeled with, including pleasing noonas when it comes to yaoi fantasies. Yes, pairings would always rule my world.

And so I love Key x Taemin, Minho x Key, Onew x (anyone except Jonghyun). They made me read almost all entries at shineeworld and finish a story whenever I have a 10 minute break between my consecutive classes. Man, those writers are awesome. And of course the boys are awesome for being so awesome. XDDD

And after these things, I shall budget my daily expenses and refrain from bringing my ATM next year.

Amen to saving money and may the spirit of my dad's overly-thriftiness bless my wicked, spent-drift soul.

miyuchi

merry x'mas

and

happy new year!!!

Everyone!!

Ahaha~

I know I've been aloof from most of my accounts here in the net, but I assure you, I'm still alive! ^^

Just lurking for the past months in some communities, reading  a lot of mmmm..as boyz lurve izzues.

WAHAHAHAH~

Anyway, Christmas this year was a tad bit....boring. Or quiet. I dunno, slap me if I'm wrong. At least in my family it was. No merriment as the clock ticks 12, no BGM, no shouting of joy or bickering. It was soooo...normal of a day. But my new niece caught us by surprise as she was soooooooooooooo effin cute and fat! Srsly, this kid owes flabs that I never had when I was a baby. Check it out:

Nicole (niece) and Kuya

(older brother; I don't call him by any name,

just "kuya" <-- Tagalog word for "older brother")

CHECK OUT THAT ARRRRRRRRRRRRM~ Isn't it wiggling so nice and flubby?! XDDDDDDD

I wanna see this baby again. Or better yet, my brother should get to moving and give us a cute baby already. He's already in marrying age, though we all know he doesn't want to get married, but still!!! Babies are sooooooo cute *gooing*

And, starting my 2010 right, I already bought a planner for the next year. Since I tend to forget a lot of things and by the end of this year, I realized how greatly a planner works for my faltering memory, I decided that I will use this as much as possible. I'll invest a lot of time writing here so I made sure I bought one of the cutest that I can find so my interest to use it will always be afloat. 8DDDD

Also, I'm not making any resolutions, since that's bullshit talk anyway, so I'll just do things as they should be done in time. I'll call those "goals", to be more appropriate with words. So for the start of the month, here's a wish list:

And actually, after a few minutes of uploading this picture, I think I updated with 3 more things, including formatting my CPU, getting a 90.++ grade from our QA, WRITING and to finish books borrowed. So many things to do in a month! But there will be more so I should be ready. UMPPPPPPPPPF!

So many people died this year which makes this Christmas a bit gloomier than the past ones. Personally, I don't know if I have grown mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Physically, don't even ask because one of my long term goal now is to fucking lose these flabs! They are soooooooooooooooooo ugly. Thanks conscious-self for finally slapping me good of my figure. So there, I hope I'll be able to finally do those things I really really want in time.

I realized there's a lot of things to be scared about as the new year enters, but let's not forget there's also a lot to anticipate about. They're all blurred behind the ripples of water, a big mystery still, but nonetheless, that's what makes it quite thrilling, right?

^^

So always take care everyone!

And again, MERRY XMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!

May we all have a blessed 2010! :D